To Love Is Holy

To Love is Holy

We live the spirit of being                                                                                                       Reaching out to touch our isness                                                                                          Fear to love what death can touch                                                                                                To love, hope, and dream to be fills us with fear                                                                    To be and to loose A thing for fools                                                                                               A holy thing this hope and dream of being and a holy thing this love to be

Your life has lived in me                                                                                                                Your laugh once lifted me                                                                                                                  Your word was gifted me                                                                                                                  To remember this brings painful joy                                                                                          Tis a human thing love                                                                                                                      A holy thing To love what death can touch

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We do not fall in love physically with another we first fall in love psychically. We touch the spirit of each other, reaching out beyond our chrysalis to find the JOY of being intimate with the spirit and psyche of another. The moment our spirit touches another, the moment we connect our spirits, the bonds of isolation are dropped and for however brief we know total acceptance and absolute love. Our being is filled with joy we experience bliss and the grace of God and Spirit.

In my life I have had many intimate relationships. It is perhaps more honest to say relationships I thought were intimate relationships. In my work I found, we all seek mates and friends who remind us in some manner of our parents (After all what other source of education do we really have in the beginning about intimacy other than our parents?)

I sought to be comfortable, safe, and loved unconditionally. What I found was not so comfortable nor was it without a horrendous price to my ego and spirit. I found myself being afraid my looks would diminish and love would not be there. I found myself in abusive relationships. What I did not find was the Joy of Intimacy nor did I find my hunger to be known in an intimate manner fulfilled. Sex was great, but the isolation and barriers only disappeared for short periods, and then the isolation would return. I only broke through the fog of aloneness when I became acute enough to know it begins with being intimate with the self. And in this we loose the aloneness, the loneliness, and the lack of love we often feel.

The secret I have learned is that we only love the spirit of another. We are capable, like good mothers, of loving all that come across our path. BUT to fall in love to have an intimate relationship means we must be willing to be vulnerable and surrender. In this, we will know the other person psychically and allow our self to be known psychically. The rest of the secret is we only fall in love at a spiritual level. All the rest is window dressing. Love is not created out of feelings, emotions, or saying I do. But is the container in which we grow and become intimate with all life.

© Suzanne Deakins 2016-2018 Sexual Fluidity 

The Creator of all life is absolute love.


Righteous Anger A Paradox

A radical inner transformation and a rise to a new level of consciousness is our only hope of freedom.

 To me emotions are a tool. They are neither good nor bad, but tools to help us navigate our life on a spiritual path. Most of us don’t have control of our emotions in the beginning of our journey. We try to hide our feelings or become upset when are emotions are not recognized by others. In my study I have learned that many emotions are connected to past experiences that cause us to block insight and Truth.

Anger is one of the hardest emotions to understand. At the moment of anger we all feel justified in being angry. Through my work I have identified many different types of anger.

Suppression:  You consciously (with intention) exclude the feelings of anger. We often push down the feelings and blocking past experiences and causes of the anger. This stops exclusion from consciousness of a thought or feeling. This choice stops healthy processing. It also contributes to a toxic level of internalized anger. Suppressing anger can cause depression.

Aggression:  Entails offensively assaulting or attacking others seeking to hurt others or seek revenge. We feel we have been wrongly accused or hurt in some manner and seek to take back our emotions. Through The Prosperos ( Releasing the Hidden Splendor you can release your self and others from this cycle of hurt-revenge-hurt. Radical forgiveness helps you to understand the consciousness of your anger and situational causer.

Passive Aggression:  This type of anger is often hard to recognize. The anger’s communication of negative emotions is in passive, indirect ways such as manipulation or noncooperation. This choice pretends to be ok, but seeks revenge covertly rather than openly.

Simply recognizing the anger does not process it. We need to understand the unconscious motivation behind the expression of anger in all of its forms in order to be released from the power it holds over us. It is only by accepting consciousness as the causer in all cases that we can let go of the anger. Letting go of anger doesn’t mean we don’t recognize the situation as being unjust or one that is causing harm to others.

By recognizing the consciousness of anger and the causer we lift the destabilizing blindness and rage often present. Anger that is unresolved can cause toxic amounts of hormones and impact your health and mental wellbeing.

Righteous Anger is using the energy presented with anger to make just changes in your life or that of others. It can become an effort to protect others such as MADD (Mothers Against Drunk Driving). Righteous Anger is not physical aggressive, nor verbally abusive. It is a peaceful approach knowing that all there is, is Truth/God/One Mind. Once you have reached that understanding doorways of thoughts you become aware of many avenues of actions available to help resolve the unjust and danger to others.

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Throwing Away Spiritual Junk And Finding A State Of Grace.

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There is a disease in our world called hoarding. It is almost at endemic levels in the spiritual world. We hear something that seems real or reinforces our current ego state and we say yeah… “I buy that.” The idea is then put into our spiritual/religious closet and usually kept there. After awhile the closet is so full we can’t open the door without becoming overwhelmed with philosophies that no longer are valid, but we hold onto them. Holding on because we are afraid that we will miss something, we will be less worthy and connected.

Our ego has allowed us to ingest junk spiritual food. Junk spiritual food are those ideas that may be Truth to a degree, but lack depth and a path that we can walk to remember who we really are. By consuming these junk spiritual ideas, our mind has become toxic to the point that we can no longer distinguished between healthy and junk ideas. We let our ego take us through one idea after another looking for something that will satisfy that internal hunger of wanting to belong of being loved and desired. The need to be loved and wanted is as much spiritual as it is physical. The spiritual needs always plays out in some physical manner.

The road to cleaning out your hoarding closet is not particularly easy or fast. And no one path of cleaning fits all of us. What I have learned in my own cleaning is that each path leads to the same place. A remembering of your true identity where you strip away all that feeds the ego. The ego keeps you emotional and spiritual locked into old ideas and language.

The tendency of the Western consciousness is to think in binary terms. This binary idea then forces us back into a puritanical place of separation of our consciousness.

It literally forces us to consume ideas that further blind us to the hoarding and lack of connection to Truth/God. For us to move past hoarding we must embrace consciousness as the progenitor, the causer, the father of all actions and reactions.

Once we can embrace consciousness as the causer we can let go of all kinds of emotional, intellectual, and spiritual junk that covers our true identity. We can embrace the idea that our identity is no more or less than consciousness aware of itself as consciousness. With this we can unload our hoarding closet and throw out all of the ideas that have fed our ego and false identity.

This act of consciousness automatically renders a state of grace where we are embraced by the cohesive force we call love. We know that our true nature is manifesting in infinite variety without the death or birth, without beginning or end ever evenly present.

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The Dragon Enchantment of Self: Part 3 The identity of Forever

The symbol of the dragon has always fascinated me. My time in China did not cure that enchantment. In fact the concept of enchantment has been in the forefront of my thinking. The dragon in China is a spiritual and cultural symbol. It is assigned to those individuals who are powerful and successful the symbol of a dragon eating his tail (the same as a snake eating its tail) is one of infinity. The snake is a symbol of healing and when eating its’ tail shows the power of enchantment and healing of the one mind. Dragons are mythical and spell bounding. Their symbol of infinity and healing power dwell within each of us.

The dragon enchantment is of consciousness. We are drawn into the concept mesmerized, spell bound, and enchanted without reason. There is no black and white, in consciousness there is just beingnes, isness in an infinite moment that defines the reality of our self. At some point we realize that the nothingness of being leaves us plasmatic (moldable) allowing us to be all there is. When there is no choice as in being consciousness, we are enchanted being drawn into a world of realization that defines all earthly revelations. We are total power and yet no power at the same moment. The more we surrender to the nothingness of being the more we become enchanted brought to the realization that the self is no more and yet is all there is not separate from all but the all or totality of reality.

The shape of a circle represents the totality of consciousness. For instance the medicine wheel represents that body-mind-spirit. It represents that the healing of self or nation does not come from one area or one being separated but rather acknowledgement of the enchantment of oneness, of wholeness. When illness occurs in a group, country, or world it is because the consensus of the group is one of separation or partition into areas. Healing is by unanimity of the group that all there is, is One. One knowing itself as One manifesting in infinite variety without beginning or end. The forever self of Truth.

“My greatest Medicine [Wheel] is One of the Mind, and Body, and Heart. If you have One Hundred People who Live Together, and if Each One Cares for the Rest, there is One Mind. The Power of this One Single Mind is a Great One, and is a means of Keeping Sickness from Among them. But if Ten of that Hundred do not Care for the Rest of their Brothers and Sisters, then there is a Threat. The Threat is One of Sickness. .. [This is because we] are each a living spinning Medicine Wheel, and Each of us Possesses this Power to Destroy or to Create.” Night Bear.

Night bears statement implies that each human being is somatically tied into the family, tribe, community, country, and Universe. This is the concept of One Mind. Thus by agreement we remain whole as ONE. If we deny this wholeness, this ONENESS of Mind we become ill. The illness, of not caring for each other is by conscious consensus. The forever self is lost in the abyss of either/or, unable to surrender to the NO thingness of consciousness. When any of us cares for the other our self is forever and the dragon capable of healing all body-mind-spirit. To not to care for another (brothers members of our tribe, Universe) is to hate. To hate is an illness. An illness that is only cured by the caring of the other. The infinite circle represented by the medicine wheel, the dragon biting its’ tail, and the snake biting its’ tail is healing, medicine which is to heal the illness.

“If there are ten, a hundred, a thousand, or just one, it is the same. It is not numbers it is completeness. I am an old man, and I have seen clearly what happens when a People are not One. Before the white man began to destroy the unity of the camps, there was very little sickness. I had never seen a child born bad or dead. I never knew a man who was crippled by disease. Crippled man, yes! But they were crippled by carelessness upon the great prairie. This other is a carelessness much more deadly.” White Clay, chief among the Plains Indian People.

A circle, wheel, dragon or snake represents human beings, animals, worlds, and language and all other properties, animate and inanimate. We, human beings, self, mirror all the properties of consciousness and conversely all properties of consciousness mirror human beings and each other. It is called reflective consciousness. All power, energy of life, and being as all properties within it and of consciousness compromised of spirits, the vital essences of life and beingness.

You are forever without beginning or end. Enchanted by the totality of Truth.

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Identity and Disease

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How we identify our being, self, is directly connect to our relationship to all aspects of our life. In the unconscious mind disease/illness is connected archetypically with the concept of evil, sin, and confusion.

The Archetype of Adam, Eve, and the Garden of Eden resides in our unconscious mind. This archetype is a kind of symbol that is present in all cultures. It deals with creation (creation myths) and being expelled from Eden (a symbol of birth and other transformative moments in life). At the transformative moments our consciousness becomes moldable, and pliable. In this moment we become separated from our creator source becoming confused, delusional, and chaotic. At the point of separation there is a conflict of being and knowledge.

There is the innocence of residing (being) with the creator source in the Garden and confusion and sinfulness (knowledge of two ideas good and evil) because of the transgression (awakening to the idea of a binary, duplicitous thinking) and misperception. Good, must not be mixed with evil the lesson Adam feels he must grasp. This is the moment of disease and illness. The harmony of just being is lost in our identity and we are cast into a wilderness (at birth) where we must learn about good and evil. We must, like Adam, name or classify our being into categories of good and bad. The strict lines of knowledge and the laws that govern physical life.

The sickness we see in the world is this moment of separation. The sickness of separated children from parents, the sickness of not caring for each other, of poverty, hunger, and lack of spiritual connection. I understood that it is a matter of consciousness. But understanding that does not cure or heal the sickness. This moment of separation of our being from spirit causes confusion because our reality is neither/nor.

We assume that the things of nature that were ultimately classed and categorized as neither/nor (suggesting nothingness) or both/and (suggesting a compromise of distinctive or opposites) the chaos is the breaking down of the properties of creation or, if you will, the things of nature. The law (axiomatic law) of disease infers the need for and the maintaining of structure. Structure refers to harmony and order. This is set in our mind that we must remain either male or female and our beingness must be understood as separate from the creator in order to maintain harmony.

The conflict in our being is the confusion or in epistemology terms sin or evil. The law of dis-ease infers the need for and the maintaining of structure. In this case, structure symbolically refers to balance and/or harmony. The collective consciousness of humanity give consensus to certain ideas that eventually becomes laws or facts in our thinking. The consensus of disease is that we have brought it upon ourselves by wrongful (sinful) thought, we have mixed the ideas and no longer have pure thoughts.

This idea is called somato-psychic (as opposed to psychosomatic) in that the universe and body become together a soma of mind or vital essence (spirit and power).   The axiomatic idea is that to loose sight of the collective consciousness and the spiritual body of humanity is bring about bad medicine. In most Native American and Asian cultures the law of order is an integrative and connective compliments of opposing ideas among the properties and bodies of being. This means unless we understand consciousness is our prime sphere of existence we are going to feel separated from our being and creator source consequently experience illness and aloneness.

At this point it becomes easy to see how as a planet we have become full of sickness in our behavior, because we don’t understand our connectedness as consciousness. Unless we return to our true identity as individuals this state of existence will continue.

We must form an enchanted culture where we understand that a somato-psychic cosmos may be considered as a body—mind-spirit; hence, to treat the body is to treat the mind and spirit and vice versa. Where we see in consciousness there is no separation of body-mind-spirit.

In the United States and many Western cultures we treat the mind as being over the body and spirit. Putting the original idea of sin (dualistic thinking) into play in consciousness.

All in all, the Universe is perceived in terms of a mind ­with-a-body. The psychosomatic viewpoint is indicative of the puritanized, disenchanted consciousness and consensus.

Thus leading us to dualistic thinking. Mind, body, and spirit must become as one in our consciousness for us to be healed and return to our True Identity of Consciousness aware of itself as Consciousness.

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A Fraudulent Identity of the Non-Self

Please Join us today, June 20 at 3 PM Pacific and 6 Pm Eastern time on Paltalk the ACIM Gather room. We spend a hour exploring ideas of consciousness. Go to for information on Paltalk and the radio.

In my experience the goal of spiritual endeavor is the return to the True identity of self. Name, gender, family, birth information, tribe, and country don’t define the true self. They are adjectives and adverbs that describe what we think we are.

The underlying archetype of the most people is one of puritan To comprehend who we really are on a cosmic level we need to understand what being puritan means. The basis for the puritan archetype is that is deals with a binary (duplicitous) way of dealing with the world.

Being puritanical goes back to the ideas of strict lines non-mixed ideas. In the Garden of Eden (the archetype of creation) Adam and Eve eat of the tree of knowledge and are cast out of the Garden of Eden. Before they eat of the tree of knowledge they know only ONE way. There is no division of power, no good, no evil, NO sin NO non-self. There is only the self as a child of God. Male and Female they are. Meaning they are of one gender, androgynous. There is only good (God) and no evil. There was no death only life.

Once Adam and Eve are outside of the garden with knowledge, they now know two, binary, duplicitous thinking. There is now evil. Everything must be characterized and named. To protect the good it mustn’t be mixed or hybrid with evil. It must remain pure (hence puritanical).

Consequently the bases for good and bad, binary thinking is laid. The fear (to know) of impurity begins to rule our consciousness. We fight sin (to miss the mark or be confused). Puritanical thinking fights to keep lines of thinking pure based on lines of demarcation in our thinking. Male must not be as female, black and white must not be mixed. We fight sinning by trying to keep away from confusion in our language, and in our thinking.

From the moment of birth we are characterized, named, and classified. We are male or female, white, black, brown, or any color of the rainbow. We are taught to color inside the lines, and think in boxes. But our true nature is not Adam and Eve toiling outside of the garden, our natural inclination is to return to the Garden of Eden. To know an existence that is whole and complete in nature.

This separation from Deity/Truth is the bases of all illness. It is disease; it is the death of the soul. Being expelled from the garden is the dark night of the soul. We each replay the scenario of being expelled from the garden. Birth is the beginning, it repeats itself around 11-14 years as we become aware that we are separated from our creator (mother/father) and are not the same as them.

As we face this separation we are forced to make decisions about good and bad, morals, and trying to remain pure. We start categorizing of ideas in our minds (replaying Adam’s work). This is bad, that is good. This is pure that is mixed (sinful). Gradually, depending on parental and school influences, we build a library of fears. Our Non-self is built on fear of those who appear different, whose gender is not readily put into any category, fear of those whose skin color is different… we like Adam are compelled to try to fight the disease of sin, separation, and ultimately death. We are besotted with the idea of being pure in thought and deed. We fight to be right and when an idea seems different we reject it out of hand.

Someplace in our distorted idea of our self we decided we are the non-self. The non-self fills it’s existence with guilt, righteousness, and illness, trying to make up for the impurity of thought (confusion of the laws of nature).

Its desire to return to the Garden of Eden divides our very being. The puritanical thought process has left us in an unknown country, isolated, split into fear of death and life. The only way out if this puritanical process is by dropping the binary thinking and returning to the Truth as whole, complete, and perfect. Each of us struggle with our identity… our true identity.

In The Prosperos we drop this non-self, this binary puritanical thinking for what we know to be true about the nature of reality. We use a tool called Translation. Where we begin to see the return to thinking that is not hampered by duality and boxed in thoughts.

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Seeking a New Identity

Please join us today June 13 ( 3 pm Pacific and 6 pm Eastern time) for an hour of discovery and love on Paltalk at the ACIM Gather room. 

Currently I am working on editing a dissertation from one of my authors. I am more than a publisher, I am a Mentor in The Prosperos, I teach techniques that help us free ourselves from our past traumas, and see our true spiritual identity.

The base of the philosophy is ontology or investigating our beingness in relationship to our consciousness. In this we look at archetypes that reside in our unconscious minds and influence how we perceive our relationships in the world. In our investigation, and study we look at the words in our life and how they influence our consciousness. This brings me back to the dissertation. He has done extensive epistemology (the study of the origin and meaning of words) in his writing.

One of the words he deals with is disease (dis-ease). In dealing with this he goes back to the very beginning of humanity as related in the King James Version of the Bible. Here he explores the ideas of good and evil, the binary concepts of relationships and the causers of our inability to educate ourselves.

Unfortunately when we live in a binary world we must decide between two and leave no room for thinking outside of a prescribed box given to our consciousness by our predecessors. An example of this is how we see disease; we are either healthy or ill. An either or situation is presented, leaving no room for a discovery or breakthrough in our thinking. All psychology deals with the sickness of black and white thinking. When we think in binary terms we find our self limited to either good or bad identity. If I am not good I am bad. God is good, I am not God therefore I am bad.

Disease of any kind, in allopathic or alternative medicine, is looked at as evil, bad. It can’t be good because the natural harmony of the body is disrupted. All life emanates from a creator source. Genesis 1:31 And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. The word good can be traced back (epistemology of the word) to mean God. God is good. As in Job when Job has an eureka moment where he recognizes that God is all there is, in every blade of grass and the furthest star. The importance of this cannot be ignored. This means that all life is good, no matter how we perceive it, no matter how we think about it. We are good for we are the originator of our thoughts of all life as it appears in our relationships.

This means no matter how a disease is ravishing our body, or any other part of our world it is still God, good manifesting in infinite variety. It is our perception and lack of understanding that puts us out of harmony. Gives us dysphoria with our body gender, and world.

We have not created the illness the disease, we are not being punished, we are simply caught in the binary system of thinking and perception. It is important to remember that even a deadly disease follows a principle. It is not chaotic. It may cause chaos but, even that is based on our in ability to see that God/Truth/being is all there is.

Until we identify as whole, complete, and good we will feel estranged from our true identity as the creator source of our world. We will feel lost, out of touch with our being.

© Copyright 2016-2018 by Suzanne Deakins

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Let Freedom Ring

Please join us Friday June 6th at 3 Pm Pacific Time and 6 Pm Eastern time on Paltalk at the ACIM Gather room. Spend an hour of discovery and community.

The last two weeks I have been talking about the importance of understanding our emotional and spiritual identity in my talk on Paltalk at the ACIM Gather room. (Every Friday at 3 PM Pacific time.) Several incidents in my life have left me reassessing my sense of self. The death of children taught me that my grief was being fed by the loss of identity as a mother. It took a while to recapture the idea that my identity was not based on physical life but my relationship to ideas and spiritual philosophy.

Recently I went through another change. The immigration diabolical and separating children from parents and family left me reeling. I did not recognize my country or my place in it. We are brought up with an identity of self that is instilled in us by our parents and community. From an early age we are taught to honor our country and leaders. My father was a career military officer and he instilled in us a sense of pride and respect for all of those who served in the military. I saw my father and other officers make sure the less fortunate, in the communities we lived in, receive much needed services and necessities. Being a volunteer, helping others was a major part of our identity. I suspect that most second generation Americans felt the same way.

So watching families torn apart, rather than being helped as they sought assistance left me confused and in a muddled state of thinking. Where was my country, my identity as an American?

Shame and guilt destroy our sense of self and well-being. And I feel that is exactly what has happened to us the last couple of years. Recouping our sense of pride and well-being is not easy but there are steps we can take. A recent AARP article expounded on how volunteering, and being grateful increased the sense of self and pleasure in life. It appears that these selfless acts increase the part of the brain that releases hormones that raise us out of depression and helplessness feelings.

Being grateful for what we have should be a daily routine. Experience tells us that when we are thankful we are more likely to be able to see our way through muddled thinking and sadness, loss of identity. A simple thank you to your inner self for being is often all it takes.

Volunteering  is difficult sometimes, but there are many ways we can give of our self to others. A simple good morning, nice to see you etc sometimes can set another’s path on a positive note.

America stands for more than freedom, it stands for caring for others, helping others, and being grateful for the opportunities many of us have been given. Life is not perfect neither is our identity as Americans, but one person’s insanity or lack of caring does not change who we are.

Let Freedom Ring in your heart and mind. And know you are not bound by the insanity present around you. Celebrate our independence day the whole year.

Copyright © 2016-2018 by Suzanne Deakins

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Renaissance Of Humanity

Renaissance Of Humanity

A small revolution, a renaissance has been happing since humanity landed on the moon. For the first time we had a collective consciousness knowing we were not earth bound but truly of the stars. Thus began a wave of consciousness enlightenment where we are literally being able to restart our humanity with a new sense of identity. We are no longer earth bound or bound by a canon that says we must obey ancient rules and beliefs, which has caused wars, devastation of large sections of humanity, and cruelty at all levels. As much as we have come to see we have free will and no longer need to obey strict father rules in our spiritual and daily lives, we have also come to see that we are part of a great unbounded whole.

Some place in the far reaches of consciousness, at the moment of conception; our conscious mind is seeded with the connection to all life as well as the infinitude of existence. Our umbilical cord is attached to all life, plant, animal, and simple organism etc. We share common genetic codes in most cases at least 70-95%. This means to me, that we cannot undo our connection to life.

We are being reborn into our universe and in a renaissance time where we have the opportunity to understand being human in a whole new manner. We are now in a position to understand we are one with all life manifesting in infinite variety as individuals. For the first time we can begin to think in a deductive manner. We are aware of axioms and the importance of Truth and syllogistic reasoning based on axiomatic premises. In non-philosophical terms this means we have the ability to think in terms of facts that are so no matter where you are (such as 2 + 2=4 is always so). Our reasoning and thinking are no longer based on old prejudices, beliefs, and fears. Thinking abstractly and critically does not preclude using our intuition. We have the ability to go beyond our perceptions based on old beliefs, rules, and dogmas. This means we are free to create a renaissance of community, caring, and our identity

No longer bound by inductive reasoning where we assume things are a certain way because of our beliefs and prejudices; we are free of the shackles of the strict father rules. Inductive reasoning assumes we are different and separate from other beings. This false reasoning can cause us to lack empathy for all life. Good example of inductive reasoning is the proposed travel band. Assuming all people from the banned countries are terrorist. When we think inductively we make assumptions that are not based on facts.

A renaissance, a birth, is always bloody and filled with pain. This past year is a very good indication that as a community, a country, and hopefully a world, we cannot keep a watershed of the old as the new comes. The pain and fear we all feel from time-to-time is all apart of the new birth. Those not connected to our community as participants or allies will still be forced into a birth. Once the birth begins it cannot be put on hold.

There seems to be a cosmic intention that is pushing us forward through the pain and fear. We are being pushed toward a new concept of humanity. Awakened to, as the Chinese say, “human who walks among the stars.” This renaissance is bringing a new love to all that exist.

This is never more apparent than it is in watching the outpouring of concern for children and parents being separated by the USA border patrol. The outcry is one of separating children from their primary source of love. Children and family that know they are whole, complete, and love. The world is filled with individuals who were conceived in love, grew in love, and bring the message to all that would see and know in their hearts. In this we become inclusive in all that we experience and do.

It is time for us all to think with our hearts and feel with our minds.

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Creative Identity

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The suppression of creative urges damages our sense of self and identity. For most of us growing up in a western culture our creative urges were pushed under the surface of our consciousness. Sexually speaking these urges begin soon after the moment of birth. We now know that many women have an orgasm at the moment the baby’s head begins to crown. While any woman who has given birth without sedation will tell you there is pain, women who are aware will tell you there is an enormous sense of release and pleasure. Several European studies have gone on to document this with both birth mothers and midwifes.

To me, this means our first sexual experience, comes at the moment of our birth. We are psychically connected to our birth mother at those moments and for many months to come. If our birth mother was joyous at our birth there will be a start of a joyful paradigm in our consciousness about creativity and sexuality.

At about 2 years old, little boys and girls, become very interested in the genitalia of each other and themselves. Boys notice circumcision and lack of it, girls often feel confused because they have no penis. If this exploration is discouraged and not discussed the child begins to build a negative idea about their sex assign identity.

Around 2 years transgender children will often begin having feelings of confusion about their gender. Parents who try to discourage the feelings and discussion of sexual identification by a child do more harm in suppressing the child and their sense of wholeness and health. Sexual curiosity, feelings, gender inquisitiveness are all a part of building a healthy ego. An ego, which is based on healthy insights into the working of our psyche.

My point with all of this is that gender and sexual assignment discussions are an important part of mental health and the well being of all children. When a parent denies the feelings and need for discussion in these areas the child’s creativity is buried and becomes stagnant.

Understanding your feelings of gender are an important part of realizing your identity. Not because you must act in a certain way, but because if you understand your underlying feelings and identity, you free yourself from the boxes society has placed on us, labeling us binary and limiting our gender identity to male or female.

Carl Jung took Freud’s work on the importance of sexuality and gender in our life a step further. He boldly stated that we are whole, and complete, both female and male genders. He further went on to explore the idea that it takes both the male and female concepts for us to be creative. Creativity is defined as something like baking a cake, building a sand castle… or any other endeavor you might take. Our gender identity, how we view our selves as a sexual creative being is at the very core of our spiritual identity.

Our moment of orgasm no matter how it occurs is a moment of sacredness. It is that one time we are not limited to a preconceived idea about our self, our body, our identity and know we are one with the Universe, one with Truth and God.

Copyright 2016-2018 Suzanne Deakins

Sexual Fluidity, release date fall of 2018

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