In The Image of Love

I say to you, you are made in the image of God, Love. You are Love.

In Western religious training we are often told: God is love, and our parents or caregivers inform us that we are not God: I am not God, our silent conclusion is then: there for I am not love. As we mature this line of thinking draws us into a state of confusion.

By eleven years of age, we know our parents are our physical progenitors. We see ourselves reflected back in them by physical image and sometimes emotional image. Most of us were taught that God created the world and universe. This must mean that God created us, and again a conclusion that our parents are God. This con­clusion is in our child’s mind.

We see our parents’ habits and our disagree­ments with them as some kind of expression of God. How are we to believe and have faith in that which we feel betrayed us time and again? We have placed the attributes our parents (and other adults) displayed into the category of God. Our sense of God, Truth, Divine Mind. and Consciousness are immediately tainted by a misunderstanding of spiritual law.

We venture out into the world seeking to eradicate our existential void. We have seen with our own eyes that our parents and family are separate from us. We feel unacceptable and hated by the very progenitors that created us. We seek to love and be loved intuitively feeling that this is the answer the key to our salvation.

Like the prodigal son we seek our fortune in the world that seemingly is out there. We be­lieve we can control any circumstance. Feeling empowered by our new awareness we try to direct the unfolding of consciousness, the mani­festation of life around us. And like the prodigal son we must eventually return to the “house of our father.” This is we must return to under­standing spiritual law/Truth as the governing and creative force in our life.

In our return we seek to eradicate the exis­tential void* we have lived. We seek to free our­selves of the addiction of human understanding for the experience of God/Truth that transcends our ego, misguided understandings of our in­tellect and even our emotions.

We seek acceptance by the force that creates all life. To know the connection to understand it is all one idea, divine mind unfolding, we must give up our separateness and look squarely into the face of God. The father awaits our return. A great feast is prepared and JOY resides. The father is known only to the father. Like 2+2= 4 is not known to the error of 2+2=5 our error of thought is not known to the father who is spiri­tual law, Truth.

We are once again faced with the daunting task of looking at the face of God… we must drop the veils of illusion that anything exists other than God as Love. To escape our condem­nation to hell and life in this existential void, to gain salvation* we must see that we are indeed the child of God. We must pull the curtain from the mirror. Drop the dreams of addiction, of control and separateness for the reality that all we are is love.

Standing before the mirror naked and un­adorned knowing we are indeed love and this love is the only salvation any of us have. It is the only path that leads us out of the separateness, the hate, the blame and shame. We step from the darkness into the Splendor of God. For God whispers, “you shall live forever for have brought forth in love.”

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Love Is

Love has very little to do with freedom if it recognizes it at all. Love is a binding force. It helps us over come separateness in our thinking and in our under-standing of Truth. Love is is is is… When we get into emotional aspects of love, like loving them enough or loving them 100% we are not dealing with the love but a personal concept of humanness.

Truth is not emotional, well okay it is sexy and seductive, but not really emotional, neither is love. Love is not emotional. We think we feel it with your hearts, but what we are really feel­ing is the pull of the energy it represents. This energy is pulling and pushing us to greater accep­tance and under-standing of our self as Truth as not being separate from God. Love is the force, which takes us to the Garden of Eden where in we may stand naked before God unashamed in our wholeness and perfection. When we try to break the bindings of love and leave the Gar­den of Eden we feel spiritual pain. Our quest as Translators is to build a Garden of Eden over and over again, so that we may know God un­afraid and without shame and guilt.

We do not expand our consciousness without others. Consciousness is reflective in nature. Reflecting consciousness shows us our percep­tion and that which resides in our unconscious mind. In isolation we tend to become insular re­fusing to dilate out to the universe and accept the seeds of God and Truth in our conscious­ness. Love needs another it needs the rela­tionships of Truth in its drive to dilate and ac­cept God and Truth.

Love is the communion of life. It is para­mount to our expression of life. The need for communion is so important that we would hit the most delicate of all beings at birth, so that they would announce the appearance in the group and readiness to participate in the communion of life as love. Communion and communication are the same concept. When accepting a communion you accept the link/talk with the Christ self.

In participating in the communion of life we give voice sound to Truth. “In the beginning was the word and the word was God.” We are the weav­ers of the Universe. In our work and under­standing during moments of communion, we weave the new fabric of universal conscious­ness. We weave the host, the blood and body of the Christ consciousness. This can only be done in a relationship with another to have full impact. So whether it is with one or a group or a healing triad, it must still be done with reflective con­sciousness.

© 2000-2018 by Suzanne Deakins

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In The Service of Love

I didn’t even begin to understand love until I was in my early twenties. I had warm heart feelings for many people and ideas and I often called this love. I thought love was for the lucky person. I had no idea who and what I really was.

Then came my first child. Through the pain and fear my first child was born. They brought Gregg to me. Swaddled in sterile blankets. Looking down I saw the small face scrunch up and moving its lips in a sucking motion. Becom­ing overwhelmed with emotion, for the first time I knew absolute love and beheld the face of God. This small bundle carried the face of God and absolute love.

My path has taken me down many avenues of love. One thing I am certain of is that the appearance withstanding it has been a path of love, Absolute Love. Love has no opposites and does not reside in the binary world of duality. It is never lacking, is ever evenly present. The human mind is too feeble to grasp the enormity of what the creator of all life has done. We try to take this abstract idea, this nothing and make it physical. We name it label it, give it opposite saying such things that fear is the opposite of love. Fear is an ego thought and idea. Love is of the creator and is the manifestation of all life. Life has been created in love. We are the manifestation of love. We are a vessel of love in the service of love.

To be in the service of love is not a right or a privilege it is a mandate of our creator source. Our feeble human thinking wants us to see the beginnings and endings to see lack and fear.

Ego thought tells us to form categories, to be afraid, it tells us God/Truth/One Mind and love are hiding from us. It says we have been abandoned by love, God, Truth, and one mind. This leads us down a path of constant looking rather than just being and seeing all we need and are already is.

God/Truth has never hidden. Love is all life manifesting and can’t be covered up with pain and sorrow… it cant be the opposite of fear… for fear is a human thought and Love is the thought of God, Truth, and Higher Consciousness. Truth is always present and can’t be absent.

We stand on the brink of our future looking into the vast center of chaos shaking like a small rabbit unable to grasp we are the source of love itself, manifesting it without end. We climb the mountain of Dante every day having found our name in the fires of our own hell. We stand quaking and trembling afraid to descend the mountain to the valley. In the valley, we find our cosmic destination. Our destination in manifesting love in all we do expressing giving and receiving love as love. Dilating out to the universe. You cannot hide from God or Love, for the eyes of the creator source knew you before you were. You are in the service of love every day of life. You have only to open your arms and recognize all that is and all will be, Love.

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Healing Love

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Our history (what we have come to belief about life) defines our existence. Our ontological existence or being is expressed through the unconscious lenses we see through. This existence isn’t always in alignment with Truth, all there is or wholeness. Illness of any kind is based on the archetype of Adam and Eve’s expelled from the Garden of Eden. They were separated from God/Truth and for the first time experienced binary consciousness.

The separation from the (tribe) wholeness, Truth/God is the causer in consciousness of illness. When we Translate (see for more info) you are removing the lenses of separation (Translation, prayer and meditation are a asking to return to this wholeness or the Garden of Eden, where there is one consciousness.

The only healing is a return to this state of oneness of fission with the creator source, Truth, God, One mind, consciousness. Fusion is a description of love. To love is to come together to merge to be as one. Only in this state do any of us heal.

The only healing for any of us is in love. No one can give you love, make you happy or heal you. This is a solo flight. Love is a space we must move into if we want to be loved. Sometimes, being in a space of love, is accepting the love of those around you. It always is about giving love. Love is a passionate force (not particularly emotional) that seeks to know itself through us. It seeks to merge and connect and be known. All connections are of love all relationships are of love…no matter how they appear in our consciousness a connection can only be made in love.

Love is creative, seeking to produce, merge and create new life through new understanding. When we are connected to others we seek to co-create. Bringing forth greater and greater expressions of Love…in these connections we are healed. No longer do we experience the pain of separation. No longer do we cry in loneliness within our soul.

When you move into the loving space, you will know. You will know you are healed, no matter what the simply being in a space of love. You are surrounded by love and those who await you. Only you can move there…into to that space. You will know you are ready to go forth creating and loving with all the connections you will make with your life. Healing is not a miracle… it is

@ 2016-2018 Suzanne Deakins, from When God Whispers available on

To Love Is Holy

To Love is Holy

We live the spirit of being                                                                                                       Reaching out to touch our isness                                                                                          Fear to love what death can touch                                                                                                To love, hope, and dream to be fills us with fear                                                                    To be and to loose A thing for fools                                                                                               A holy thing this hope and dream of being and a holy thing this love to be

Your life has lived in me                                                                                                                Your laugh once lifted me                                                                                                                  Your word was gifted me                                                                                                                  To remember this brings painful joy                                                                                          Tis a human thing love                                                                                                                      A holy thing To love what death can touch

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We do not fall in love physically with another we first fall in love psychically. We touch the spirit of each other, reaching out beyond our chrysalis to find the JOY of being intimate with the spirit and psyche of another. The moment our spirit touches another, the moment we connect our spirits, the bonds of isolation are dropped and for however brief we know total acceptance and absolute love. Our being is filled with joy we experience bliss and the grace of God and Spirit.

In my life I have had many intimate relationships. It is perhaps more honest to say relationships I thought were intimate relationships. In my work I found, we all seek mates and friends who remind us in some manner of our parents (After all what other source of education do we really have in the beginning about intimacy other than our parents?)

I sought to be comfortable, safe, and loved unconditionally. What I found was not so comfortable nor was it without a horrendous price to my ego and spirit. I found myself being afraid my looks would diminish and love would not be there. I found myself in abusive relationships. What I did not find was the Joy of Intimacy nor did I find my hunger to be known in an intimate manner fulfilled. Sex was great, but the isolation and barriers only disappeared for short periods, and then the isolation would return. I only broke through the fog of aloneness when I became acute enough to know it begins with being intimate with the self. And in this we loose the aloneness, the loneliness, and the lack of love we often feel.

The secret I have learned is that we only love the spirit of another. We are capable, like good mothers, of loving all that come across our path. BUT to fall in love to have an intimate relationship means we must be willing to be vulnerable and surrender. In this, we will know the other person psychically and allow our self to be known psychically. The rest of the secret is we only fall in love at a spiritual level. All the rest is window dressing. Love is not created out of feelings, emotions, or saying I do. But is the container in which we grow and become intimate with all life.

© Suzanne Deakins 2016-2018 Sexual Fluidity 

The Creator of all life is absolute love.


Righteous Anger A Paradox

A radical inner transformation and a rise to a new level of consciousness is our only hope of freedom.

 To me emotions are a tool. They are neither good nor bad, but tools to help us navigate our life on a spiritual path. Most of us don’t have control of our emotions in the beginning of our journey. We try to hide our feelings or become upset when are emotions are not recognized by others. In my study I have learned that many emotions are connected to past experiences that cause us to block insight and Truth.

Anger is one of the hardest emotions to understand. At the moment of anger we all feel justified in being angry. Through my work I have identified many different types of anger.

Suppression:  You consciously (with intention) exclude the feelings of anger. We often push down the feelings and blocking past experiences and causes of the anger. This stops exclusion from consciousness of a thought or feeling. This choice stops healthy processing. It also contributes to a toxic level of internalized anger. Suppressing anger can cause depression.

Aggression:  Entails offensively assaulting or attacking others seeking to hurt others or seek revenge. We feel we have been wrongly accused or hurt in some manner and seek to take back our emotions. Through The Prosperos ( Releasing the Hidden Splendor you can release your self and others from this cycle of hurt-revenge-hurt. Radical forgiveness helps you to understand the consciousness of your anger and situational causer.

Passive Aggression:  This type of anger is often hard to recognize. The anger’s communication of negative emotions is in passive, indirect ways such as manipulation or noncooperation. This choice pretends to be ok, but seeks revenge covertly rather than openly.

Simply recognizing the anger does not process it. We need to understand the unconscious motivation behind the expression of anger in all of its forms in order to be released from the power it holds over us. It is only by accepting consciousness as the causer in all cases that we can let go of the anger. Letting go of anger doesn’t mean we don’t recognize the situation as being unjust or one that is causing harm to others.

By recognizing the consciousness of anger and the causer we lift the destabilizing blindness and rage often present. Anger that is unresolved can cause toxic amounts of hormones and impact your health and mental wellbeing.

Righteous Anger is using the energy presented with anger to make just changes in your life or that of others. It can become an effort to protect others such as MADD (Mothers Against Drunk Driving). Righteous Anger is not physical aggressive, nor verbally abusive. It is a peaceful approach knowing that all there is, is Truth/God/One Mind. Once you have reached that understanding doorways of thoughts you become aware of many avenues of actions available to help resolve the unjust and danger to others.

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Throwing Away Spiritual Junk And Finding A State Of Grace.

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There is a disease in our world called hoarding. It is almost at endemic levels in the spiritual world. We hear something that seems real or reinforces our current ego state and we say yeah… “I buy that.” The idea is then put into our spiritual/religious closet and usually kept there. After awhile the closet is so full we can’t open the door without becoming overwhelmed with philosophies that no longer are valid, but we hold onto them. Holding on because we are afraid that we will miss something, we will be less worthy and connected.

Our ego has allowed us to ingest junk spiritual food. Junk spiritual food are those ideas that may be Truth to a degree, but lack depth and a path that we can walk to remember who we really are. By consuming these junk spiritual ideas, our mind has become toxic to the point that we can no longer distinguished between healthy and junk ideas. We let our ego take us through one idea after another looking for something that will satisfy that internal hunger of wanting to belong of being loved and desired. The need to be loved and wanted is as much spiritual as it is physical. The spiritual needs always plays out in some physical manner.

The road to cleaning out your hoarding closet is not particularly easy or fast. And no one path of cleaning fits all of us. What I have learned in my own cleaning is that each path leads to the same place. A remembering of your true identity where you strip away all that feeds the ego. The ego keeps you emotional and spiritual locked into old ideas and language.

The tendency of the Western consciousness is to think in binary terms. This binary idea then forces us back into a puritanical place of separation of our consciousness.

It literally forces us to consume ideas that further blind us to the hoarding and lack of connection to Truth/God. For us to move past hoarding we must embrace consciousness as the progenitor, the causer, the father of all actions and reactions.

Once we can embrace consciousness as the causer we can let go of all kinds of emotional, intellectual, and spiritual junk that covers our true identity. We can embrace the idea that our identity is no more or less than consciousness aware of itself as consciousness. With this we can unload our hoarding closet and throw out all of the ideas that have fed our ego and false identity.

This act of consciousness automatically renders a state of grace where we are embraced by the cohesive force we call love. We know that our true nature is manifesting in infinite variety without the death or birth, without beginning or end ever evenly present.

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The Dragon Enchantment of Self: Part 3 The identity of Forever

The symbol of the dragon has always fascinated me. My time in China did not cure that enchantment. In fact the concept of enchantment has been in the forefront of my thinking. The dragon in China is a spiritual and cultural symbol. It is assigned to those individuals who are powerful and successful the symbol of a dragon eating his tail (the same as a snake eating its tail) is one of infinity. The snake is a symbol of healing and when eating its’ tail shows the power of enchantment and healing of the one mind. Dragons are mythical and spell bounding. Their symbol of infinity and healing power dwell within each of us.

The dragon enchantment is of consciousness. We are drawn into the concept mesmerized, spell bound, and enchanted without reason. There is no black and white, in consciousness there is just beingnes, isness in an infinite moment that defines the reality of our self. At some point we realize that the nothingness of being leaves us plasmatic (moldable) allowing us to be all there is. When there is no choice as in being consciousness, we are enchanted being drawn into a world of realization that defines all earthly revelations. We are total power and yet no power at the same moment. The more we surrender to the nothingness of being the more we become enchanted brought to the realization that the self is no more and yet is all there is not separate from all but the all or totality of reality.

The shape of a circle represents the totality of consciousness. For instance the medicine wheel represents that body-mind-spirit. It represents that the healing of self or nation does not come from one area or one being separated but rather acknowledgement of the enchantment of oneness, of wholeness. When illness occurs in a group, country, or world it is because the consensus of the group is one of separation or partition into areas. Healing is by unanimity of the group that all there is, is One. One knowing itself as One manifesting in infinite variety without beginning or end. The forever self of Truth.

“My greatest Medicine [Wheel] is One of the Mind, and Body, and Heart. If you have One Hundred People who Live Together, and if Each One Cares for the Rest, there is One Mind. The Power of this One Single Mind is a Great One, and is a means of Keeping Sickness from Among them. But if Ten of that Hundred do not Care for the Rest of their Brothers and Sisters, then there is a Threat. The Threat is One of Sickness. .. [This is because we] are each a living spinning Medicine Wheel, and Each of us Possesses this Power to Destroy or to Create.” Night Bear.

Night bears statement implies that each human being is somatically tied into the family, tribe, community, country, and Universe. This is the concept of One Mind. Thus by agreement we remain whole as ONE. If we deny this wholeness, this ONENESS of Mind we become ill. The illness, of not caring for each other is by conscious consensus. The forever self is lost in the abyss of either/or, unable to surrender to the NO thingness of consciousness. When any of us cares for the other our self is forever and the dragon capable of healing all body-mind-spirit. To not to care for another (brothers members of our tribe, Universe) is to hate. To hate is an illness. An illness that is only cured by the caring of the other. The infinite circle represented by the medicine wheel, the dragon biting its’ tail, and the snake biting its’ tail is healing, medicine which is to heal the illness.

“If there are ten, a hundred, a thousand, or just one, it is the same. It is not numbers it is completeness. I am an old man, and I have seen clearly what happens when a People are not One. Before the white man began to destroy the unity of the camps, there was very little sickness. I had never seen a child born bad or dead. I never knew a man who was crippled by disease. Crippled man, yes! But they were crippled by carelessness upon the great prairie. This other is a carelessness much more deadly.” White Clay, chief among the Plains Indian People.

A circle, wheel, dragon or snake represents human beings, animals, worlds, and language and all other properties, animate and inanimate. We, human beings, self, mirror all the properties of consciousness and conversely all properties of consciousness mirror human beings and each other. It is called reflective consciousness. All power, energy of life, and being as all properties within it and of consciousness compromised of spirits, the vital essences of life and beingness.

You are forever without beginning or end. Enchanted by the totality of Truth.

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Identity and Disease

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How we identify our being, self, is directly connect to our relationship to all aspects of our life. In the unconscious mind disease/illness is connected archetypically with the concept of evil, sin, and confusion.

The Archetype of Adam, Eve, and the Garden of Eden resides in our unconscious mind. This archetype is a kind of symbol that is present in all cultures. It deals with creation (creation myths) and being expelled from Eden (a symbol of birth and other transformative moments in life). At the transformative moments our consciousness becomes moldable, and pliable. In this moment we become separated from our creator source becoming confused, delusional, and chaotic. At the point of separation there is a conflict of being and knowledge.

There is the innocence of residing (being) with the creator source in the Garden and confusion and sinfulness (knowledge of two ideas good and evil) because of the transgression (awakening to the idea of a binary, duplicitous thinking) and misperception. Good, must not be mixed with evil the lesson Adam feels he must grasp. This is the moment of disease and illness. The harmony of just being is lost in our identity and we are cast into a wilderness (at birth) where we must learn about good and evil. We must, like Adam, name or classify our being into categories of good and bad. The strict lines of knowledge and the laws that govern physical life.

The sickness we see in the world is this moment of separation. The sickness of separated children from parents, the sickness of not caring for each other, of poverty, hunger, and lack of spiritual connection. I understood that it is a matter of consciousness. But understanding that does not cure or heal the sickness. This moment of separation of our being from spirit causes confusion because our reality is neither/nor.

We assume that the things of nature that were ultimately classed and categorized as neither/nor (suggesting nothingness) or both/and (suggesting a compromise of distinctive or opposites) the chaos is the breaking down of the properties of creation or, if you will, the things of nature. The law (axiomatic law) of disease infers the need for and the maintaining of structure. Structure refers to harmony and order. This is set in our mind that we must remain either male or female and our beingness must be understood as separate from the creator in order to maintain harmony.

The conflict in our being is the confusion or in epistemology terms sin or evil. The law of dis-ease infers the need for and the maintaining of structure. In this case, structure symbolically refers to balance and/or harmony. The collective consciousness of humanity give consensus to certain ideas that eventually becomes laws or facts in our thinking. The consensus of disease is that we have brought it upon ourselves by wrongful (sinful) thought, we have mixed the ideas and no longer have pure thoughts.

This idea is called somato-psychic (as opposed to psychosomatic) in that the universe and body become together a soma of mind or vital essence (spirit and power).   The axiomatic idea is that to loose sight of the collective consciousness and the spiritual body of humanity is bring about bad medicine. In most Native American and Asian cultures the law of order is an integrative and connective compliments of opposing ideas among the properties and bodies of being. This means unless we understand consciousness is our prime sphere of existence we are going to feel separated from our being and creator source consequently experience illness and aloneness.

At this point it becomes easy to see how as a planet we have become full of sickness in our behavior, because we don’t understand our connectedness as consciousness. Unless we return to our true identity as individuals this state of existence will continue.

We must form an enchanted culture where we understand that a somato-psychic cosmos may be considered as a body—mind-spirit; hence, to treat the body is to treat the mind and spirit and vice versa. Where we see in consciousness there is no separation of body-mind-spirit.

In the United States and many Western cultures we treat the mind as being over the body and spirit. Putting the original idea of sin (dualistic thinking) into play in consciousness.

All in all, the Universe is perceived in terms of a mind ­with-a-body. The psychosomatic viewpoint is indicative of the puritanized, disenchanted consciousness and consensus.

Thus leading us to dualistic thinking. Mind, body, and spirit must become as one in our consciousness for us to be healed and return to our True Identity of Consciousness aware of itself as Consciousness.

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A Fraudulent Identity of the Non-Self

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In my experience the goal of spiritual endeavor is the return to the True identity of self. Name, gender, family, birth information, tribe, and country don’t define the true self. They are adjectives and adverbs that describe what we think we are.

The underlying archetype of the most people is one of puritan To comprehend who we really are on a cosmic level we need to understand what being puritan means. The basis for the puritan archetype is that is deals with a binary (duplicitous) way of dealing with the world.

Being puritanical goes back to the ideas of strict lines non-mixed ideas. In the Garden of Eden (the archetype of creation) Adam and Eve eat of the tree of knowledge and are cast out of the Garden of Eden. Before they eat of the tree of knowledge they know only ONE way. There is no division of power, no good, no evil, NO sin NO non-self. There is only the self as a child of God. Male and Female they are. Meaning they are of one gender, androgynous. There is only good (God) and no evil. There was no death only life.

Once Adam and Eve are outside of the garden with knowledge, they now know two, binary, duplicitous thinking. There is now evil. Everything must be characterized and named. To protect the good it mustn’t be mixed or hybrid with evil. It must remain pure (hence puritanical).

Consequently the bases for good and bad, binary thinking is laid. The fear (to know) of impurity begins to rule our consciousness. We fight sin (to miss the mark or be confused). Puritanical thinking fights to keep lines of thinking pure based on lines of demarcation in our thinking. Male must not be as female, black and white must not be mixed. We fight sinning by trying to keep away from confusion in our language, and in our thinking.

From the moment of birth we are characterized, named, and classified. We are male or female, white, black, brown, or any color of the rainbow. We are taught to color inside the lines, and think in boxes. But our true nature is not Adam and Eve toiling outside of the garden, our natural inclination is to return to the Garden of Eden. To know an existence that is whole and complete in nature.

This separation from Deity/Truth is the bases of all illness. It is disease; it is the death of the soul. Being expelled from the garden is the dark night of the soul. We each replay the scenario of being expelled from the garden. Birth is the beginning, it repeats itself around 11-14 years as we become aware that we are separated from our creator (mother/father) and are not the same as them.

As we face this separation we are forced to make decisions about good and bad, morals, and trying to remain pure. We start categorizing of ideas in our minds (replaying Adam’s work). This is bad, that is good. This is pure that is mixed (sinful). Gradually, depending on parental and school influences, we build a library of fears. Our Non-self is built on fear of those who appear different, whose gender is not readily put into any category, fear of those whose skin color is different… we like Adam are compelled to try to fight the disease of sin, separation, and ultimately death. We are besotted with the idea of being pure in thought and deed. We fight to be right and when an idea seems different we reject it out of hand.

Someplace in our distorted idea of our self we decided we are the non-self. The non-self fills it’s existence with guilt, righteousness, and illness, trying to make up for the impurity of thought (confusion of the laws of nature).

Its desire to return to the Garden of Eden divides our very being. The puritanical thought process has left us in an unknown country, isolated, split into fear of death and life. The only way out if this puritanical process is by dropping the binary thinking and returning to the Truth as whole, complete, and perfect. Each of us struggle with our identity… our true identity.

In The Prosperos we drop this non-self, this binary puritanical thinking for what we know to be true about the nature of reality. We use a tool called Translation. Where we begin to see the return to thinking that is not hampered by duality and boxed in thoughts.

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