Identity and Disease

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How we identify our being, self, is directly connect to our relationship to all aspects of our life. In the unconscious mind disease/illness is connected archetypically with the concept of evil, sin, and confusion.

The Archetype of Adam, Eve, and the Garden of Eden resides in our unconscious mind. This archetype is a kind of symbol that is present in all cultures. It deals with creation (creation myths) and being expelled from Eden (a symbol of birth and other transformative moments in life). At the transformative moments our consciousness becomes moldable, and pliable. In this moment we become separated from our creator source becoming confused, delusional, and chaotic. At the point of separation there is a conflict of being and knowledge.

There is the innocence of residing (being) with the creator source in the Garden and confusion and sinfulness (knowledge of two ideas good and evil) because of the transgression (awakening to the idea of a binary, duplicitous thinking) and misperception. Good, must not be mixed with evil the lesson Adam feels he must grasp. This is the moment of disease and illness. The harmony of just being is lost in our identity and we are cast into a wilderness (at birth) where we must learn about good and evil. We must, like Adam, name or classify our being into categories of good and bad. The strict lines of knowledge and the laws that govern physical life.

The sickness we see in the world is this moment of separation. The sickness of separated children from parents, the sickness of not caring for each other, of poverty, hunger, and lack of spiritual connection. I understood that it is a matter of consciousness. But understanding that does not cure or heal the sickness. This moment of separation of our being from spirit causes confusion because our reality is neither/nor.

We assume that the things of nature that were ultimately classed and categorized as neither/nor (suggesting nothingness) or both/and (suggesting a compromise of distinctive or opposites) the chaos is the breaking down of the properties of creation or, if you will, the things of nature. The law (axiomatic law) of disease infers the need for and the maintaining of structure. Structure refers to harmony and order. This is set in our mind that we must remain either male or female and our beingness must be understood as separate from the creator in order to maintain harmony.

The conflict in our being is the confusion or in epistemology terms sin or evil. The law of dis-ease infers the need for and the maintaining of structure. In this case, structure symbolically refers to balance and/or harmony. The collective consciousness of humanity give consensus to certain ideas that eventually becomes laws or facts in our thinking. The consensus of disease is that we have brought it upon ourselves by wrongful (sinful) thought, we have mixed the ideas and no longer have pure thoughts.

This idea is called somato-psychic (as opposed to psychosomatic) in that the universe and body become together a soma of mind or vital essence (spirit and power).   The axiomatic idea is that to loose sight of the collective consciousness and the spiritual body of humanity is bring about bad medicine. In most Native American and Asian cultures the law of order is an integrative and connective compliments of opposing ideas among the properties and bodies of being. This means unless we understand consciousness is our prime sphere of existence we are going to feel separated from our being and creator source consequently experience illness and aloneness.

At this point it becomes easy to see how as a planet we have become full of sickness in our behavior, because we don’t understand our connectedness as consciousness. Unless we return to our true identity as individuals this state of existence will continue.

We must form an enchanted culture where we understand that a somato-psychic cosmos may be considered as a body—mind-spirit; hence, to treat the body is to treat the mind and spirit and vice versa. Where we see in consciousness there is no separation of body-mind-spirit.

In the United States and many Western cultures we treat the mind as being over the body and spirit. Putting the original idea of sin (dualistic thinking) into play in consciousness.

All in all, the Universe is perceived in terms of a mind ­with-a-body. The psychosomatic viewpoint is indicative of the puritanized, disenchanted consciousness and consensus.

Thus leading us to dualistic thinking. Mind, body, and spirit must become as one in our consciousness for us to be healed and return to our True Identity of Consciousness aware of itself as Consciousness.

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A Fraudulent Identity of the Non-Self

Please Join us today, June 20 at 3 PM Pacific and 6 Pm Eastern time on Paltalk the ACIM Gather room. We spend a hour exploring ideas of consciousness. Go to for information on Paltalk and the radio.

In my experience the goal of spiritual endeavor is the return to the True identity of self. Name, gender, family, birth information, tribe, and country don’t define the true self. They are adjectives and adverbs that describe what we think we are.

The underlying archetype of the most people is one of puritan To comprehend who we really are on a cosmic level we need to understand what being puritan means. The basis for the puritan archetype is that is deals with a binary (duplicitous) way of dealing with the world.

Being puritanical goes back to the ideas of strict lines non-mixed ideas. In the Garden of Eden (the archetype of creation) Adam and Eve eat of the tree of knowledge and are cast out of the Garden of Eden. Before they eat of the tree of knowledge they know only ONE way. There is no division of power, no good, no evil, NO sin NO non-self. There is only the self as a child of God. Male and Female they are. Meaning they are of one gender, androgynous. There is only good (God) and no evil. There was no death only life.

Once Adam and Eve are outside of the garden with knowledge, they now know two, binary, duplicitous thinking. There is now evil. Everything must be characterized and named. To protect the good it mustn’t be mixed or hybrid with evil. It must remain pure (hence puritanical).

Consequently the bases for good and bad, binary thinking is laid. The fear (to know) of impurity begins to rule our consciousness. We fight sin (to miss the mark or be confused). Puritanical thinking fights to keep lines of thinking pure based on lines of demarcation in our thinking. Male must not be as female, black and white must not be mixed. We fight sinning by trying to keep away from confusion in our language, and in our thinking.

From the moment of birth we are characterized, named, and classified. We are male or female, white, black, brown, or any color of the rainbow. We are taught to color inside the lines, and think in boxes. But our true nature is not Adam and Eve toiling outside of the garden, our natural inclination is to return to the Garden of Eden. To know an existence that is whole and complete in nature.

This separation from Deity/Truth is the bases of all illness. It is disease; it is the death of the soul. Being expelled from the garden is the dark night of the soul. We each replay the scenario of being expelled from the garden. Birth is the beginning, it repeats itself around 11-14 years as we become aware that we are separated from our creator (mother/father) and are not the same as them.

As we face this separation we are forced to make decisions about good and bad, morals, and trying to remain pure. We start categorizing of ideas in our minds (replaying Adam’s work). This is bad, that is good. This is pure that is mixed (sinful). Gradually, depending on parental and school influences, we build a library of fears. Our Non-self is built on fear of those who appear different, whose gender is not readily put into any category, fear of those whose skin color is different… we like Adam are compelled to try to fight the disease of sin, separation, and ultimately death. We are besotted with the idea of being pure in thought and deed. We fight to be right and when an idea seems different we reject it out of hand.

Someplace in our distorted idea of our self we decided we are the non-self. The non-self fills it’s existence with guilt, righteousness, and illness, trying to make up for the impurity of thought (confusion of the laws of nature).

Its desire to return to the Garden of Eden divides our very being. The puritanical thought process has left us in an unknown country, isolated, split into fear of death and life. The only way out if this puritanical process is by dropping the binary thinking and returning to the Truth as whole, complete, and perfect. Each of us struggle with our identity… our true identity.

In The Prosperos we drop this non-self, this binary puritanical thinking for what we know to be true about the nature of reality. We use a tool called Translation. Where we begin to see the return to thinking that is not hampered by duality and boxed in thoughts.

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Seeking a New Identity

Please join us today June 13 ( 3 pm Pacific and 6 pm Eastern time) for an hour of discovery and love on Paltalk at the ACIM Gather room. 

Currently I am working on editing a dissertation from one of my authors. I am more than a publisher, I am a Mentor in The Prosperos, I teach techniques that help us free ourselves from our past traumas, and see our true spiritual identity.

The base of the philosophy is ontology or investigating our beingness in relationship to our consciousness. In this we look at archetypes that reside in our unconscious minds and influence how we perceive our relationships in the world. In our investigation, and study we look at the words in our life and how they influence our consciousness. This brings me back to the dissertation. He has done extensive epistemology (the study of the origin and meaning of words) in his writing.

One of the words he deals with is disease (dis-ease). In dealing with this he goes back to the very beginning of humanity as related in the King James Version of the Bible. Here he explores the ideas of good and evil, the binary concepts of relationships and the causers of our inability to educate ourselves.

Unfortunately when we live in a binary world we must decide between two and leave no room for thinking outside of a prescribed box given to our consciousness by our predecessors. An example of this is how we see disease; we are either healthy or ill. An either or situation is presented, leaving no room for a discovery or breakthrough in our thinking. All psychology deals with the sickness of black and white thinking. When we think in binary terms we find our self limited to either good or bad identity. If I am not good I am bad. God is good, I am not God therefore I am bad.

Disease of any kind, in allopathic or alternative medicine, is looked at as evil, bad. It can’t be good because the natural harmony of the body is disrupted. All life emanates from a creator source. Genesis 1:31 And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. The word good can be traced back (epistemology of the word) to mean God. God is good. As in Job when Job has an eureka moment where he recognizes that God is all there is, in every blade of grass and the furthest star. The importance of this cannot be ignored. This means that all life is good, no matter how we perceive it, no matter how we think about it. We are good for we are the originator of our thoughts of all life as it appears in our relationships.

This means no matter how a disease is ravishing our body, or any other part of our world it is still God, good manifesting in infinite variety. It is our perception and lack of understanding that puts us out of harmony. Gives us dysphoria with our body gender, and world.

We have not created the illness the disease, we are not being punished, we are simply caught in the binary system of thinking and perception. It is important to remember that even a deadly disease follows a principle. It is not chaotic. It may cause chaos but, even that is based on our in ability to see that God/Truth/being is all there is.

Until we identify as whole, complete, and good we will feel estranged from our true identity as the creator source of our world. We will feel lost, out of touch with our being.

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Let Freedom Ring

Please join us Friday June 6th at 3 Pm Pacific Time and 6 Pm Eastern time on Paltalk at the ACIM Gather room. Spend an hour of discovery and community.

The last two weeks I have been talking about the importance of understanding our emotional and spiritual identity in my talk on Paltalk at the ACIM Gather room. (Every Friday at 3 PM Pacific time.) Several incidents in my life have left me reassessing my sense of self. The death of children taught me that my grief was being fed by the loss of identity as a mother. It took a while to recapture the idea that my identity was not based on physical life but my relationship to ideas and spiritual philosophy.

Recently I went through another change. The immigration diabolical and separating children from parents and family left me reeling. I did not recognize my country or my place in it. We are brought up with an identity of self that is instilled in us by our parents and community. From an early age we are taught to honor our country and leaders. My father was a career military officer and he instilled in us a sense of pride and respect for all of those who served in the military. I saw my father and other officers make sure the less fortunate, in the communities we lived in, receive much needed services and necessities. Being a volunteer, helping others was a major part of our identity. I suspect that most second generation Americans felt the same way.

So watching families torn apart, rather than being helped as they sought assistance left me confused and in a muddled state of thinking. Where was my country, my identity as an American?

Shame and guilt destroy our sense of self and well-being. And I feel that is exactly what has happened to us the last couple of years. Recouping our sense of pride and well-being is not easy but there are steps we can take. A recent AARP article expounded on how volunteering, and being grateful increased the sense of self and pleasure in life. It appears that these selfless acts increase the part of the brain that releases hormones that raise us out of depression and helplessness feelings.

Being grateful for what we have should be a daily routine. Experience tells us that when we are thankful we are more likely to be able to see our way through muddled thinking and sadness, loss of identity. A simple thank you to your inner self for being is often all it takes.

Volunteering  is difficult sometimes, but there are many ways we can give of our self to others. A simple good morning, nice to see you etc sometimes can set another’s path on a positive note.

America stands for more than freedom, it stands for caring for others, helping others, and being grateful for the opportunities many of us have been given. Life is not perfect neither is our identity as Americans, but one person’s insanity or lack of caring does not change who we are.

Let Freedom Ring in your heart and mind. And know you are not bound by the insanity present around you. Celebrate our independence day the whole year.

Copyright © 2016-2018 by Suzanne Deakins

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