This is an introduction to a new book. Go to  The Prosperos for more info on seminars near you. 

In a seminar called Translation, taught by the Prosperos, we use syllogistic reasoning to bring our world view and experiences back into alignment, balance, and existence with the concept of axiomatic Truth. The technique takes the user out of binary cognition into a state of symmetry and perfection to a transcendence experience. Eliminating mental confusion, restriction, and restrained reasoning. Our education and early training cause us to become limited, binary in cognition, and prejudiced in how we view the world, reason, and judge our actions and those of others.

The ontological theory is that all life as we experience is a result of consciousness. Our consciousness manifests, what appears to be clear, palpable to our mind. Our experiences are the demonstration of our beliefs, education, and understanding of Truth, or axiomatic realities.

When you are taught addition you are being taught an axiomatic Truth, meaning that the addition of 2 +2= 4 is so, wherever you use it. It is limitless and unrestrained by our beliefs and understanding. It is in total balance, harmony, and symmetry. The example of 2+2=4 has no negative effect on our experiences, until we miss calculate it and come up with the wrong conclusions, or in error such as 2+2=5. This miscalculation of the equations conclusion can cause havoc in everything we do from our bank balance to the construction of a building. You can apply this same reasoning to all areas of your life. Any area that is having chaos, disorder, and pain is simple an area of our life that is out of balance where we have not understood the axiomatic Truth in that area… we are experiencing a manifestation of a misalignment of the axiomatic equation or principle in that area. We manifest what our consciousness believes.

This is a simplistic way of stating a process that feels as if it is much more complicated, yet is elegant in its simplicity. Those of us that practice the technique find we are able to navigate even the most chaotic situations without panic and anxiety. Bringing our thinking and reasoning back into balance and axiomatic perfection, symmetry.

When we are using this technique, in a sense, we are returning our consciousness to the moment of creation. The moment before the universal big bang when there was nothingness. Someplace in the recesses of your consciousness this is understood. All religions talk about this moment in the beginning there was nothing and then the god(s) created. As conscious beings we carry this information within our genetic consciousness.

The physicist studying the beginnings of our universe now know that the moment before the beginning there was nothing, no land, water, or living thing. There was symmetry, perfection, and beauty. The Higgs particle was whole, complete in symmetry. But then something happened and the symmetry, balance began to deteriorate, to break down into what we now call forces and particles of life. In the western bible this is written as that in the beginning there was nothingness and god created light, and it goes on to describe the process of creation. In all religions this same idea is repeated as if we were giving an explanation of the beginning of life. Science is just now being able to describe this beginning mathematically. In our genetic consciousness we carry the knowledge that the perfection, symmetry, and wholeness still exist in an axiomatic state such as math and Truth.

In syllogistic reasoning we aim to reach a state of where all our thinking resides in this state of symmetry, perfection, and alignment with axiomatic Truth. Perhaps all of our searching for an understanding of self and meaning of life is nothing more than a return to this moment of creation of perfection and beauty.

I believe in my own personal work I strive for this state of symmetry, nonbinary, perfection that I call wholeness. Each moment I spend in contemplating these ideas my consciousness comes closer to grasping the perfection of axiomatic concepts. As my mind settles into self-evident thinking and Truth there is a feeling of being released from my own mental restraints to explore the world with new eyes.

On the surface this can all sound a bit of what I call woo-woo or like magical thinking. To get past the belief in magical thinking we can explore what physicist are saying and learning. First a solid definition of symmetry: beauty from  or arising of balanced proportions. The saying the beauty is in the eye of the beholder becomes even more evident as each of us sees symmetry according to our consciousness.

We can also look at symmetry as a rigid motion of a geometric figure that determines a one-to-one mapping onto itself. For instance a circle is in perfect symmetry and is known only unto itself. Its symmetry is not known as a triangle or does its geometric perfection acknowledge any other figure.

Symmetry in energy or electrical flow is a parity between the negative and positive inputs and outputs. Symmetry is the moment of all life that is invariant, immutable no matter what form is applied to the axiomatic concept. Physical life no matter how it appears to us is not out of symmetry and perfection. Life can only be created by the moment of creation, which is symmetrical, perfection, and axiomatic Truth. The beginning of all life no matter what forms it takes is a repeat of that one moment of nothing becoming something. All life carries the genetic structure of its progenitors.

The axiomatic laws of the universe are dictated (as far as physicist know) based on symmetry. This simply means that the universe, to be understood, could be seen simply as a mathematical equation. It is by this mathematical means that physicists can predict what can be. Simply put they know that 2+2=4 is going to be the same no matter where it appears. 

“Life exist in a state of perfect rational symmetry. In a state of perfect symmetry is similar to the state of perfect balance. A spinning top exist in a state of perfect rotational symmetry. No matter how you rotate, everything looks the same. Even more so than a spinning top everyplace in the universe would have been symmetrical identical to every other place. But perfection isn’t stable. The slightest imperfection, the slightest little defect will cause it to vibrate perturb and fall to a low energy state, symmetry has been broken.” Michio Kaku on NOVA

The idea of fluctuation causing the symmetry to be broken and a change in how life manifests is important because it tells us why and how our thinking and consciousness causes us to experience states that appear not to be axiomatic. The unity of the universe that was at the moment of creation still exists in our consciousness as part of our genetic inheritance. We are intricately connected to the whole universe. The idea of this unity is a driving theme in physics as it strives to understand how it axiomatically appears and is united in all aspects. That which seems so diverse to our reasoning is still connected.

We know that the matter particles, the boson, force particles that hold everything together are related in a profound and hidden way. This symmetry of particles and forces hold a powerful mathematical (axiomatic) theory called supersymmetry by physicists.

Supersymmetry states that seeming opposite ideas are connected and cannot exist without each other. Light exist because of darkness. Negative electricity is because of positive electrical flow… they are coupled. They need each other to exist. In reading this you combining the white space with the black letters to form a whole concept in reading. In order to read you must have contrast or seemingly opposite positioning of letters on a surface. Hence the black of the words needs the white or back ground of the surface (paper) to appear and be. The principle of supersymmetry is where ever we search for it and many times in plain sight. Unfortunately most of us are trained to be blind to that which is so or the nonbinary, and perfection aspects of life. All creation is linked in a state of unity.

In the Translation technique we are taking what appears to be opposite that which is not so, that which appears to be cleaved (two) and that which is (one perfection) and saying on this there is a connection a unity that produces all there is which is whole, perfect. In Christianity this process is seen is the trinity … the father and spirit produces the son, in Buddhism it is the either or nor processes in which the acolyte must produces the third way in their thinking. In Native American philosophy it is the third being.

Copyright 2020 Suzanne Deakins

A New Kind of Euthanasia

A New Kind of Euthanasia

For the last three months I have tried to figure out how the rent on my apartment could be legally raised $125 over the last 4 years. How can Northwest Housing Alternatives (NWHA) registered as a 501c3 raise the rent on Seniors living on SS(Social Security); rents that are double and triple any increase in SS? They, NWHA, receives government subsidizes for rents. I believe the subsidizes are federal and state. Today reading an article in the Williamette Weekly, they partially answered my questions. The Oregon State laws that apply to rental caps don’t apply to subsidized housing. Once again our lawmakers have campaigned on helping while they have screwed those living at and below the poverty line, which was set years ago and has not been updated.

Two sets of financial books? My building, according to my surface math, brings in about 400,000 a year before subsidies are payed into NWHA. Having set on the board of a senior housing company (501 c3), in New York City 30 years ago, I can tell you a senior building does not cost that much to run, even with the cost of today’s economy. A nonprofit building (501c3) means that nonprofit, money beyond cost is paid back into the organization’s services and not paid to any investors nor bonuses for management.

The regulations that are suppose to protect the elderly and poor don’t really work. In my building, all but a few, pay 50-70% of their SS or fixed income. Personally my apartment costs me $4 more than SS month. Luckily I have a roommate that helps for now. Finding another apartment is out of the question. New move-in costs for another apartment; as well as the long waiting list for subsidized apartments at 30% of your income give a picture of a bleak future. The state guidelines allow rents in subsidized housing to be a percentage of medium area income. It is the same bate and switch used by SS increases. By ignoring the real of cost for seniors such as rent, food, power, and medical costs, the increases by SS are based on areas that seniors don’t use as much as younger populations.

If a nonprofit is not suppose to be making a profit how is legitimate to to raise rents based on medium income to increase profits? Rather than their real costs. The elephant in the room is where is the money really going? How can Oregon persist to allow the rent gauging to continue. If the federal government says the cost of living only increased by 1.6% how can a nonprofit legitimately say their costs is more? It makes sense to me, that seniors living on SS and fixed incomes rent should not increase a larger percentage than the SS yearly increases. How can the rental increases on subsidized apartments be a larger percentage than the general populations? I suspect these same regulations allow starting rents on newly built buildings and subsidize apartments, considered a low income, are out of reach for most low incomes.

When does it end? Has the legislative bodies of Oregon found a new way to commit legal euthanasia of the elderly?

More of a Rant

Forty (40) % of our nations workers work at or below minimum wage. From Zero Hedge work on wage trends: “Today,  23% of workers in low pay sectors have a bachelor’s degree or higher, up from 18% 15 years ago. As universities and colleges raise their fees fewer are entering into higher educations.”

The feudal system of keeping the masses poor and enslaved to work for the land barons and wealthy is still at work. The rich get tax breaks the poor are charged more taxes. Forget about the elderly, but our children, our future… working at jobs that are necessary for our humanity working at minimum wages, sometimes 2-3 jobs just to barely pay rent. An example is most EMT workers are paid minimum wages.

A perfect scenario is brewing for a revolution. History shows that the imbalance and hunger for a morsel of equality is the kindling for revolution. You can’t keep telling the masses to eat cake when they can’t afford the flour to bake a cake and not expect a revolution.

We are becoming a nation of slaves.

Our education is no longer education. We teach them to read so they can read instructions and balance a check book, only in exceptional cases are students given music, art, the humanities that make us more empathic and creative. No longer do we teach civics, reasoning, and other topics that enhance a populations ability to think outside of personal needs. Keep our children hungry, don’t make sure they are fed so they can grow and learn. As long as you keep a population hungry, tired from working, and stressed you can lead them to a brink of death. Our population has become dispensable. The perfect script for war and revolution. 

Immigration Backlash

In 1980s a major report was issued about impact of immigration. It was astounding. Second generation immigrants are huge proponents of democracy. They are active in politics and social services for the needy. Many of the first generation start small business, 99% pay taxes and do not use welfare services. No wonder those in Washington DC, drag their feet about immigration. Why would they want pro democracy individuals that are productive rather than a bunch of slaves whose spirit has been slowly beaten out of them since the 1990s?

Junk Spiritual Food

If the holiday season is for anything it is about renewing our sense of hope. Hope for the return and sustaining the light. Light is symbolic of understanding. Christ was considered the light unto the world, Judaism celebrates Chanukah and the sustaining of the light and saving that is to come. The celebrations no matter what your belief were always meant to be simple sharing and giving. Unfortunately they have been turned into splurges that feed a kind of spiritual disease.

There is a disease in our world called hoarding. It is almost at endemic levels in the spiritual world. We hear something that seems real or reinforces our current ego state and we say yeah… “I buy that.” The idea is then put into our spiritual/religious closet and usually kept there. After awhile the closet is so full we can’t open the door without becoming overwhelmed with philosophies that no longer are valid, but we hold onto them. Holding on because we are afraid that we will miss something, we will be less worthy and connected. 

Our ego has allowed us to ingest junk spiritual food. Junk spiritual food are those ideas that may be Truth to-a-degree, but lack depth and a path that we can walk to remember who we really are. By consuming these junk spiritual ideas, our mind has become toxic to the point that we can no longer distinguished between healthy and junk ideas. We let our ego take us through one idea after another looking for something that will satisfy that internal hunger of wanting to belong, of being loved, and desired. The need to be loved and wanted is as much spiritual as it is physical. The spiritual needs always plays out in some physical manner.

The road to cleaning out your hoarding closet is not particularly easy or fast. And no one path of cleaning fits all of us. What I have learned, in my own cleaning, is that each path leads to the same place. A remembering of your true identity where you strip away all that feeds the ego. The ego keeps you emotional and spiritual locked into old ideas and language.

The tendency of the Western consciousness is to think in binary terms. This binary idea then forces us back into a puritanical place of separation of our consciousness. 

It literally forces us to consume ideas that further blind us to the hoarding and lack of connection to Truth/God. For us to move past hoarding we must embrace consciousness as the progenitor, the causer, the father of all actions and reactions.

Once we can embrace consciousness as the causer we can let go of all kinds of emotional, intellectual, and spiritual junk that covers our true identity. We can embrace the idea that our identity is no more or less than consciousness aware of itself as consciousness. With this we can unload our hoarding closet and throw out all of the ideas that have fed our ego and false identity. 

This act of consciousness automatically renders a state of grace where we are embraced by the cohesive force we call love. We know that our true nature is manifesting in infinite variety without the death or birth, without beginning or end ever evenly present.

© 2016-2019 Suzanne Deakins

Sexual Fluidity, The Gender Revoluation


From Christianity Today a Billy Graham publication

Usually I don’t copy and Paste. But this article caught my eye as it was in this week’s New Yorker. It is well written and well worth reading.

Trump Should be Removed From Office

In our founding documents, Billy Graham explains that Christianity Today will help evangelical Christians interpret the news in a manner that reflects their faith. The impeachment of Donald Trump is a significant event in the story of our republic. It requires comment.

The typical CT approach is to stay above the fray and allow Christians with different political convictions to make their arguments in the public square, to encourage all to pursue justice according to their convictions and treat their political opposition as charitably as possible. We want CT to be a place that welcomes Christians from across the political spectrum, and reminds everyone that politics is not the end and purpose of our being. We take pride in the fact, for instance, that politics does not dominate our homepage.

That said, we do feel it necessary from time to time to make our own opinions on political matters clear—always, as Graham encouraged us, doing so with both conviction and love. We love and pray for our president, as we love and pray for leaders (as well as ordinary citizens) on both sides of the political aisle.

Let’s grant this to the president: The Democrats have had it out for him from day one, and therefore nearly everything they do is under a cloud of partisan suspicion. This has led many to suspect not only motives but facts in these recent impeachment hearings. And, no, Mr. Trump did not have a serious opportunity to offer his side of the story in the House hearings on impeachment.

But the facts in this instance are unambiguous: The president of the United States attempted to use his political power to coerce a foreign leader to harass and discredit one of the president’s political opponents. That is not only a violation of the Constitution; more importantly, it is profoundly immoral.

The reason many are not shocked about this is that this president has dumbed down the idea of morality in his administration. He has hired and fired a number of people who are now convicted criminals. He himself has admitted to immoral actions in business and his relationship with women, about which he remains proud. His Twitter feed alone—with its habitual string of mischaracterizations, lies, and slanders—is a near perfect example of a human being who is morally lost and confused.

Trump’s evangelical supporters have pointed to his Supreme Court nominees, his defense of religious liberty, and his stewardship of the economy, among other things, as achievements that justify their support of the president. We believe the impeachment hearings have made it absolutely clear, in a way the Mueller investigation did not, that President Trump has abused his authority for personal gain and betrayed his constitutional oath. The impeachment hearings have illuminated the president’s moral deficiencies for all to see. This damages the institution of the presidency, damages the reputation of our country, and damages both the spirit and the future of our people. None of the president’s positives can balance the moral and political danger we face under a leader of such grossly immoral character.

This concern for the character of our national leader is not new in CT. In 1998, we wrote this:

The President’s failure to tell the truth—even when cornered—rips at the fabric of the nation. This is not a private affair. For above all, social intercourse is built on a presumption of trust: trust that the milk your grocer sells you is wholesome and pure; trust that the money you put in your bank can be taken out of the bank; trust that your babysitter, firefighters, clergy, and ambulance drivers will all do their best. And while politicians are notorious for breaking campaign promises, while in office they have a fundamental obligation to uphold our trust in them and to live by the law.

And this:

Unsavory dealings and immoral acts by the President and those close to him have rendered this administration morally unable to lead.

Unfortunately, the words that we applied to Mr. Clinton 20 years ago apply almost perfectly to our current president. Whether Mr. Trump should be removed from office by the Senate or by popular vote next election—that is a matter of prudential judgment. That he should be removed, we believe, is not a matter of partisan loyalties but loyalty to the Creator of the Ten Commandments.

To the many evangelicals who continue to support Mr. Trump in spite of his blackened moral record, we might say this: Remember who you are and whom you serve. Consider how your justification of Mr. Trump influences your witness to your Lord and Savior. Consider what an unbelieving world will say if you continue to brush off Mr. Trump’s immoral words and behavior in the cause of political expediency. If we don’t reverse course now, will anyone take anything we say about justice and righteousness with any seriousness for decades to come? Can we say with a straight face that abortion is a great evil that cannot be tolerated and, with the same straight face, say that the bent and broken character of our nation’s leader doesn’t really matter in the end?

We have reserved judgment on Mr. Trump for years now. Some have criticized us for our reserve. But when it comes to condemning the behavior of another, patient charity must come first. So we have done our best to give evangelical Trump supporters their due, to try to understand their point of view, to see the prudential nature of so many political decisions they have made regarding Mr. Trump. To use an old cliché, it’s time to call a spade a spade, to say that no matter how many hands we win in this political poker game, we are playing with a stacked deck of gross immorality and ethical incompetence. And just when we think it’s time to push all our chips to the center of the table, that’s when the whole game will come crashing down. It will crash down on the reputation of evangelical religion and on the world’s understanding of the gospel. And it will come crashing down on a nation of men and women whose welfare is also our concern.

Mark Galli is editor in chief of Christianity Today.

Coming Through

Coming through!
I AM coming through!

Coming Through

Heather C. Williams, H.W., M. December 27, 1987

The dark night of misperceived relationships Is dissolving before my eyes as I see
The true shape of Loving Unconditionally.

Talk to me about financial acceptance, Rewards and percentages.
I can afford to receive
Now that I can give what I treasure.

I actively perceive my greatest good.
I actively let go of the package it uses to attract my attention. Adversity that once energized my longing for a Higher Vision is now seen as a sense testimony to Translate.

I AM coming through!

Together like family members clustered around the gene pool,
My thoughts congregate with precision timing creating everything
I call my world.
Predictable, most of it.
Occasionally I am awakened by an unexpected face, sound, color… A potential new world,
Whereupon my highest and deepest joy comes splashing through.

I AM coming through!

Throw off the heavy robes of belief in lack and limitation.
Burn the bags of “not-good-enough-yet” stuff.
Celebrate the arrival of the parade of “Self-Directed-Individuals” all around. Speak of it quietly amidst wet morning kisses with your lover.
We are parenting a New Self!
This is the greatest hour.
Let yourself be embraced by Unconditional Love.

I AM coming through and I AM loving myself exactly as I AM!

(c) 1987-2020 by Heather C. Williams

Queer Love

The first page of the Chapter called Queer Love in my new book Sexual Fluidity the Gender Revolution release date November 2019

I think the only real queer people are those who have not learned to love. But the conundrum queer love is the only love that exists. It is love beyond reason. It is connected directly to creativity and sexuality. You can have coition without emotional love and attachment, but the moment of orgasm is a moment of love. Like gender there are as many different states of love as there are individuals. To define love as a “deep state of affection, or intimacy, attachment, warmth etc. is limiting it in my thinking. To love even for a second is to recognize the divinity of all life. Love is as multi dimensional as gender.

Queer love allows a definition beyond love as parent to child, man to woman, owner to pet. It allows the individual to find love in every crook and cranny of existence of life. In the joy of a painting, music, a queen strutting in a PRIDE parade, a new law recognizing the rights of queer folks, a partner, an accomplishment of a friend, a family classified as a homosexual with children, accepting the down trodden and ill. Perhaps this is a mother Teresa type of love I am not sure. What I am sure of is that the more I research, read, and talk to the GLBTQI community the more expansive the definition of love becomes.

Epiphanies, revelations, truly spiritual moments are not handed to us in a state without desire… to numb our self to desire and passion is to take away the possibility of intimacy with our divine nature.

© Suzanne Deakins 2016-2019


Don’t be Complicit

Today’s tweet, July 15, 2019, by Trump had the desired effect. He threw enough garbage out there to derail the energy from situation of the dehumanizing of a group of people, especially children. I believe it is not Trump (he is the instigator) but ourselves that is keeping us in this dehumanize state. As long as our feeble protests remain ineffectual, we follow the path of those citizens in Germany during the time of Hitler. Citizens who had allowed Hitler and other murders to sway the very soul of a country to allow evil to exist are the true causers. We must stop being collusion in the non-action of the Senate and Congress and not allow ourselves to be diverted by Trump.

As long as our voices remain in sotto (hushed) our soul will continue to be destroyed as a nation and individuals. There may be forgiveness by a powerful energy some call God or even a personal forgiveness, but it is impossible to atone for the inhumane treatment of children, or the death of a child via neglect or greed.

Do not allow a sick individual divert us from the path of humanitarian consciousness. Do not allow your soul to be damaged because you are afraid to shout, or give up you sotto voice.

From the very beginning our country (USA) has been complicit in acts of cruelty toward others we felt were different. You have only to look back at the treatment of Native Americans, African Americans, and the Japanese. This current situation is no different. Now is the time to stop the pattern of inhuman treatment of others because of differences. Stand up shout from the roof top embrace the differences of neighbors, embrace those who are in need, and most of all take you soul out of mothballs and set it free.

Put pressure on your representatives whatever you feel will help. Tell them to stop agreeing to the destruction of the American Soul.

Languages Of The Gender Revolution

 Language is magical. Out of our words we create a reality. As we name life so are we. Trying to define the indefinable creates binary definitions. For instance trying to describe hot. There is nothing that is 100% hot. How do you describe the degree of hot that is the ultimate hot to you? Nothing is 100 %, hot, cold, light, or, or, or. This same idea is present when we label someone with an adjective or try to designate gender. In no way is a femme 100% femme in bed or in life. There is still a piece of butch residing in her. Pronouns are another way we limit our thinking and world about each other. It is within the grey areas of life that we find the truth. The extremes of binary thinking, either or thought, black and white leave us without depth and color. The stale and flat appearance of binary thinking is like believing the world is flat and it has an edge of no return.

When in a meeting comprised of GLBTQIS members’ pronouns are always introduced when giving our names. To me this is confusing, mainly because I can’t imagine how our gender plays any part in a business meeting. I personally find it hard to say I am her, or CIS, or, or, or. I don’t feel like I am one idea. I am an infinite number of genders depending on the situation at hand and what is needed. I am androgynous, all genders and all degrees of gender at the same time. Because I am consciousness I can call on all or none of what is available to be used. As consciousness my gender is being produced by my actions, thoughts, and beliefs. I have come to see that each of us is a gender unique to our consciousness.

Comprehension of nouns, pronouns, and adjectives usually starts with a mental picture in the mind. Early in life our brain translates these pictures into words we understand. The greater our experience the more pictures we have and thus more language/words to communicate our thoughts and ideas. The greater the grasp of language the more intelligent a person is appears. This is not a real measure of intelligence, as ability comes in an infinite array of concepts. All of this plays into the need for us to come to a new understanding of the organic nature of language and the part it plays in our humanity and freeing us from a binary system.

Reaching out connecting with another is one of the most important behaviors of humanity. It appears that we don’t feel alive without this language connection. And as with any organic matter it is diverse in its meanings and use among similar societies. English and High German are the only two languages that have the ability to create new words and easily change meaning and the context use of words. This ability is so important to the survival of the species (again a kind of diversity evolving) that we have created memes that are invading almost all cultures on our planet. Unless a language diversifies it cannot embrace the changing consciousness of humanity. A good example of this is the Chinese; in order to move into our current age of technology their scientist must learn either German or English as Mandarin has no way of making new words or language to describe the diversity of engineering. In Mandarin they must say, “man who walks among the stars” instead of astronauts. They are left with needing to use English because the form of the language will not diversify enough to accommodate.

The mandate of all life is survival, to communicate, and connect to the changing consciousness. This survival and communication push is forceful enough to go beyond any boundaries that humanity might find important. It transcends culture, family, and religion. The 21st Century phenomenon of memes is a good example of the push of consciousness ideas into every technical culture on earth.

The world of memes is noteworthy for two reasons: it is a worldwide social phenomenon, and memes behave like a mass of infectious flu and cold viruses, traveling from person to person quickly through social media. The memes of English are changing the very structure of culture and consciousness. They are transmitting the new meanings and diversity of the organic changes happening in language of the emerging gender revolution. The changes and revolution that is being created it is no wonder so many sovereignties try to block USA social media. Our memes are changing not only our language and culture, but also those of the technical countries.

Memes are able to transmit meanings that the words have not been able to do so far. A picture crosses language barriers, creates a reality, and allows the person seeing it to create a concept and language meaning within their thinking. I believe that PRIDE parades create a kind of meme for the world. Saying “this is us, all the variety and infinite existence. Even if you kill out one variety of us there are too many now.” Like seeds bursting forth from a pod the growth and revolutions happening around gender can’t be taken back. Without lifting a stick or a gun the revolution began with words, with names the world has yet to fully understand.

Even Capitalism has not been able to swallow up this gender revolution and make money off of it. The diversity of gender has outsmarted the capitalist. There is too much gender diversity to put into a box and label it as a product for sale. Diversity has always been a key to survival. Seeing that language is organic and grows and changes, understanding  all organic life is complicated but in the end  the simplicity and harmony of life prevails. The capitalistic way of annihilating creative life by labeling and wrapping it in a box to be sold is gone. The recent laws enacted against transgender beings and bathrooms, abortion, and immigration are simply the screams of a dying beast whose life of destruction is about to end.

© 2019 Suzanne Deakins from                                                                                             Sexual Fluidity The Gender Revolution





Multidimensional Gender

I learn by writing and painting. This book came to life because I wanted to better understand my androgynous children and my two daughters who are transgender. The more I write the more I have begun to realize how many dimensions are involved in our human experience. Each dimension a reality that blends and merges into the other creating new fractals of being and consciousness.

In a GLPTIQ person masculine and feminine don’t have the same counter parts in the hetro world. The dimensionality moves these in a different direction. This is what I know to be so from my own experiences. Transgender is more than just feeling like the opposite sex internally from the external manifestation of gender. For a transgender there is a feeling of something desperately wrong, perhaps emotionally like being in a dream state and not being able to wake up to their true self. I have had one transgender person describe it as being angry trying to fight your way out of a cobweb covering.

In an androgynous state that is not being expressed it is more like having a box of chocolate and not allowing your self to taste it. A pressure to use, taste, smell, and experience a hidden desire, almost erotic and definitely exotic hidden within the consciousness. Not until this state is experience does the individual feel whole. It is similar to a moment of orgasm, for that second of indescribable pleasure that brings about completeness. In the end the infinite genders are all androgynous, but how they express this and use it has no singular or binary description.

The individual life experiences create a uniqueness, a gender and consciousness thumbprint unlike any other in a person. The consequences of this are a universe of conscious reality like no one else posse. It is the differences, the uniqueness of our consciousness that makes us a singular body as humanity. For too long we have looked to the sameness to connect us. Life survives not because of sameness but because of the diversity that allows us to adapt to changing environments and conscious realities. Through our diversity we become strong and fit able to face the changing realities of life. Those who cannot move from a binary existence to one of multiplicity in gender and expression of love will not survive.

When two of these conscious realities meet and find themselves attracted their blending creates further realities unlike any other thus producing queer love. The pairing they form cannot be labeled as binary, nor can the family unit that might emerge. As we start to recognize the infinite manifestation of gender and queer love we must also salute the infinite pairing and coupling that produces family structure unlike any that have been experienced before. While gender and families are unique they also carry similarity to life as we have known it until now.

It is my experiences that until we are free from all of the binary boxes can we be truly creative and alive.

(c) 2019 Suzanne Deakins                                                                                                              from Sexual Fluidity the Gender Revolution. 

 The Biology of the Transgender Self

I do not study Epigenetics nor am I scientist. I am an author, Ontologist, and teacher. What I have written is based on what I understand from my research and might have a few flaws, but on the whole I believe it is true to fact. The lesson below is a part of my new book in progress called Sexual Fluidity and Gender Revolution.

 The Biology of the Transgender Self

Knowledge of self, awareness of self and the ability to communicate in some manner the awareness of self are all a loose definition of consciousness. In the study of beingness we often use the phrase I am I, I am the self, the awareness indicating our consciousness. I do not believe our brain and body rule our consciousness singularly, but understanding that brain is directing actions and that mind or consciousness is both and yet not of both is important to unravel the mystery of self.

In the case of a transgender individual (and there are more than binary transgender{s})self is the same, perhaps a bit confusing being caused by the mix signals emitted by a binary society that has labeled all bodies as male or female. Gender identification and self are as individual as our fingerprints. Gender begins in utero during the first trimester. But before we get to the birthing of a transgender person we must understand how the basis of all life determines how our brain will come to work and perhaps perceive.

It all starts with DNA. DNA is the chain of links in our body that tell cells how they are to behave. It tells cells if they will be eyeballs, skin, noses and more. The DNA sequence never changes, but the activity of DNA can radically and perpetually change. The genes tell the cells we grow to behave like our parents, they are our inheritance.

Life in our cells is biodegradable and breaks down and must be rebuilt. The NA does not breakdown or change. There is so much DNA in the cells that it becomes entangled in knots. External factors can change how these DNA knots are formed. These knots are like small machines making many things happen within a cell, connecting paths, constructing things all making life occur.

If everything breaks down daily in our cells how do we remember past one day? The DNA must remember some how. We know the DNA sequence does not change if it did our body would be growing new extra parts like a new ear or lips. Think of the knots a DNA memory. The knots change shapes. And event in life can change how these DNA knots perform.

An event in life can change how the DNA knots act. In an intense childhood event, stress hormones flood our brain. These hormones don’t change the DNA sequence but they do change the part of DNA with the guidelines on how to reduce stress. This piece of DNA gets tied up in a knot and the dumb builder machines can’t read the instructions for building stress control and reduction devices. This is happening on a, minuscule level while on the larger scale you are loosing the ability to reduce stress. This is how the DNA is able to remember the past and affect our actions and emotions.

To The Birthing

An inseminated egg grows into a baby. The DNA process requires thousands of decisions to be made. Different decisions come at different time during a pregnancy, should a cell become a heart cell, brain cell, or a blood cell?

These same DNA workings happen in other parts of the body. The forerunner to the genitals transforms into either male or female. This happens in the first trimester of pregnancy. The precursor brains transform into male or female in the second trimester of pregnancy.

The scientific working model that in the womb is that the area of the genitals transformed one way while the brain transformed another way. The brain is giving the transgender person an innate sense of who they are. We know that the male and female brains are different, think, and relate differently.

The sense of self is not seated in the genitals but rather in the mind in the consciousness. If the brain is saying I am female then the person is female, the same for male. The genitals do not determine gender.

Science is beginning to understand how the hormones trigger the formation of these DNA knots. For instance the hormones connected with the thyroid transcribe and tell the DNA how to use the codes (tell the knot machines how to rebuild cells each day). HRT gives the DNA instructions to cells to reduce hair growth or start growth etc. Neither hormones nor body changes create the transgender self.

The self is seen and develops out of our emotional reactions to relationships with our environment, parents, and growing sense of reflection of life. The growth of a transgender consciousness must wade through dual response. The conflict between and inner knowing and what they were told to believe about their body and gender. In a world that has been steeped in binary ideals and labeling since Adam there is a long phylogenetic history to over come.

© Suzanne Deakins                                                                                                                         from Sexual Fluidity and Gender Revolution