A Fraudulent Identity of the Non-Self

Please Join us today, June 20 at 3 PM Pacific and 6 Pm Eastern time on Paltalk the ACIM Gather room. We spend a hour exploring ideas of consciousness. Go to https://acimgather.us for information on Paltalk and the radio.

In my experience the goal of spiritual endeavor is the return to the True identity of self. Name, gender, family, birth information, tribe, and country don’t define the true self. They are adjectives and adverbs that describe what we think we are.

The underlying archetype of the most people is one of puritan To comprehend who we really are on a cosmic level we need to understand what being puritan means. The basis for the puritan archetype is that is deals with a binary (duplicitous) way of dealing with the world.

Being puritanical goes back to the ideas of strict lines non-mixed ideas. In the Garden of Eden (the archetype of creation) Adam and Eve eat of the tree of knowledge and are cast out of the Garden of Eden. Before they eat of the tree of knowledge they know only ONE way. There is no division of power, no good, no evil, NO sin NO non-self. There is only the self as a child of God. Male and Female they are. Meaning they are of one gender, androgynous. There is only good (God) and no evil. There was no death only life.

Once Adam and Eve are outside of the garden with knowledge, they now know two, binary, duplicitous thinking. There is now evil. Everything must be characterized and named. To protect the good it mustn’t be mixed or hybrid with evil. It must remain pure (hence puritanical).

Consequently the bases for good and bad, binary thinking is laid. The fear (to know) of impurity begins to rule our consciousness. We fight sin (to miss the mark or be confused). Puritanical thinking fights to keep lines of thinking pure based on lines of demarcation in our thinking. Male must not be as female, black and white must not be mixed. We fight sinning by trying to keep away from confusion in our language, and in our thinking.

From the moment of birth we are characterized, named, and classified. We are male or female, white, black, brown, or any color of the rainbow. We are taught to color inside the lines, and think in boxes. But our true nature is not Adam and Eve toiling outside of the garden, our natural inclination is to return to the Garden of Eden. To know an existence that is whole and complete in nature.

This separation from Deity/Truth is the bases of all illness. It is disease; it is the death of the soul. Being expelled from the garden is the dark night of the soul. We each replay the scenario of being expelled from the garden. Birth is the beginning, it repeats itself around 11-14 years as we become aware that we are separated from our creator (mother/father) and are not the same as them.

As we face this separation we are forced to make decisions about good and bad, morals, and trying to remain pure. We start categorizing of ideas in our minds (replaying Adam’s work). This is bad, that is good. This is pure that is mixed (sinful). Gradually, depending on parental and school influences, we build a library of fears. Our Non-self is built on fear of those who appear different, whose gender is not readily put into any category, fear of those whose skin color is different… we like Adam are compelled to try to fight the disease of sin, separation, and ultimately death. We are besotted with the idea of being pure in thought and deed. We fight to be right and when an idea seems different we reject it out of hand.

Someplace in our distorted idea of our self we decided we are the non-self. The non-self fills it’s existence with guilt, righteousness, and illness, trying to make up for the impurity of thought (confusion of the laws of nature).

Its desire to return to the Garden of Eden divides our very being. The puritanical thought process has left us in an unknown country, isolated, split into fear of death and life. The only way out if this puritanical process is by dropping the binary thinking and returning to the Truth as whole, complete, and perfect. Each of us struggle with our identity… our true identity.

In The Prosperos we drop this non-self, this binary puritanical thinking for what we know to be true about the nature of reality. We use a tool called Translation. Where we begin to see the return to thinking that is not hampered by duality and boxed in thoughts.

Copyright © 2016-2018 by Suzanne Deakins                                                                  From Sexual Fluidity                                                                            onespiritpress@gmail.com

 

 

 

 

Seeking a New Identity

Please join us today June 13 ( 3 pm Pacific and 6 pm Eastern time) for an hour of discovery and love on Paltalk at the ACIM Gather room. 

Currently I am working on editing a dissertation from one of my authors. I am more than a publisher, I am a Mentor in The Prosperos, I teach techniques that help us free ourselves from our past traumas, and see our true spiritual identity.

The base of the philosophy is ontology or investigating our beingness in relationship to our consciousness. In this we look at archetypes that reside in our unconscious minds and influence how we perceive our relationships in the world. In our investigation, and study we look at the words in our life and how they influence our consciousness. This brings me back to the dissertation. He has done extensive epistemology (the study of the origin and meaning of words) in his writing.

One of the words he deals with is disease (dis-ease). In dealing with this he goes back to the very beginning of humanity as related in the King James Version of the Bible. Here he explores the ideas of good and evil, the binary concepts of relationships and the causers of our inability to educate ourselves.

Unfortunately when we live in a binary world we must decide between two and leave no room for thinking outside of a prescribed box given to our consciousness by our predecessors. An example of this is how we see disease; we are either healthy or ill. An either or situation is presented, leaving no room for a discovery or breakthrough in our thinking. All psychology deals with the sickness of black and white thinking. When we think in binary terms we find our self limited to either good or bad identity. If I am not good I am bad. God is good, I am not God therefore I am bad.

Disease of any kind, in allopathic or alternative medicine, is looked at as evil, bad. It can’t be good because the natural harmony of the body is disrupted. All life emanates from a creator source. Genesis 1:31 And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. The word good can be traced back (epistemology of the word) to mean God. God is good. As in Job when Job has an eureka moment where he recognizes that God is all there is, in every blade of grass and the furthest star. The importance of this cannot be ignored. This means that all life is good, no matter how we perceive it, no matter how we think about it. We are good for we are the originator of our thoughts of all life as it appears in our relationships.

This means no matter how a disease is ravishing our body, or any other part of our world it is still God, good manifesting in infinite variety. It is our perception and lack of understanding that puts us out of harmony. Gives us dysphoria with our body gender, and world.

We have not created the illness the disease, we are not being punished, we are simply caught in the binary system of thinking and perception. It is important to remember that even a deadly disease follows a principle. It is not chaotic. It may cause chaos but, even that is based on our in ability to see that God/Truth/being is all there is.

Until we identify as whole, complete, and good we will feel estranged from our true identity as the creator source of our world. We will feel lost, out of touch with our being.

© Copyright 2016-2018 by Suzanne Deakins

from Sexual Fluidity

 

 

Let Freedom Ring

Please join us Friday June 6th at 3 Pm Pacific Time and 6 Pm Eastern time on Paltalk at the ACIM Gather room. Spend an hour of discovery and community.

The last two weeks I have been talking about the importance of understanding our emotional and spiritual identity in my talk on Paltalk at the ACIM Gather room. (Every Friday at 3 PM Pacific time.) Several incidents in my life have left me reassessing my sense of self. The death of children taught me that my grief was being fed by the loss of identity as a mother. It took a while to recapture the idea that my identity was not based on physical life but my relationship to ideas and spiritual philosophy.

Recently I went through another change. The immigration diabolical and separating children from parents and family left me reeling. I did not recognize my country or my place in it. We are brought up with an identity of self that is instilled in us by our parents and community. From an early age we are taught to honor our country and leaders. My father was a career military officer and he instilled in us a sense of pride and respect for all of those who served in the military. I saw my father and other officers make sure the less fortunate, in the communities we lived in, receive much needed services and necessities. Being a volunteer, helping others was a major part of our identity. I suspect that most second generation Americans felt the same way.

So watching families torn apart, rather than being helped as they sought assistance left me confused and in a muddled state of thinking. Where was my country, my identity as an American?

Shame and guilt destroy our sense of self and well-being. And I feel that is exactly what has happened to us the last couple of years. Recouping our sense of pride and well-being is not easy but there are steps we can take. A recent AARP article expounded on how volunteering, and being grateful increased the sense of self and pleasure in life. It appears that these selfless acts increase the part of the brain that releases hormones that raise us out of depression and helplessness feelings.

Being grateful for what we have should be a daily routine. Experience tells us that when we are thankful we are more likely to be able to see our way through muddled thinking and sadness, loss of identity. A simple thank you to your inner self for being is often all it takes.

Volunteering  is difficult sometimes, but there are many ways we can give of our self to others. A simple good morning, nice to see you etc sometimes can set another’s path on a positive note.

America stands for more than freedom, it stands for caring for others, helping others, and being grateful for the opportunities many of us have been given. Life is not perfect neither is our identity as Americans, but one person’s insanity or lack of caring does not change who we are.

Let Freedom Ring in your heart and mind. And know you are not bound by the insanity present around you. Celebrate our independence day the whole year.

Copyright © 2016-2018 by Suzanne Deakins

From Sexual Fluidity

 

Renaissance Of Humanity

Renaissance Of Humanity

A small revolution, a renaissance has been happing since humanity landed on the moon. For the first time we had a collective consciousness knowing we were not earth bound but truly of the stars. Thus began a wave of consciousness enlightenment where we are literally being able to restart our humanity with a new sense of identity. We are no longer earth bound or bound by a canon that says we must obey ancient rules and beliefs, which has caused wars, devastation of large sections of humanity, and cruelty at all levels. As much as we have come to see we have free will and no longer need to obey strict father rules in our spiritual and daily lives, we have also come to see that we are part of a great unbounded whole.

Some place in the far reaches of consciousness, at the moment of conception; our conscious mind is seeded with the connection to all life as well as the infinitude of existence. Our umbilical cord is attached to all life, plant, animal, and simple organism etc. We share common genetic codes in most cases at least 70-95%. This means to me, that we cannot undo our connection to life.

We are being reborn into our universe and in a renaissance time where we have the opportunity to understand being human in a whole new manner. We are now in a position to understand we are one with all life manifesting in infinite variety as individuals. For the first time we can begin to think in a deductive manner. We are aware of axioms and the importance of Truth and syllogistic reasoning based on axiomatic premises. In non-philosophical terms this means we have the ability to think in terms of facts that are so no matter where you are (such as 2 + 2=4 is always so). Our reasoning and thinking are no longer based on old prejudices, beliefs, and fears. Thinking abstractly and critically does not preclude using our intuition. We have the ability to go beyond our perceptions based on old beliefs, rules, and dogmas. This means we are free to create a renaissance of community, caring, and our identity

No longer bound by inductive reasoning where we assume things are a certain way because of our beliefs and prejudices; we are free of the shackles of the strict father rules. Inductive reasoning assumes we are different and separate from other beings. This false reasoning can cause us to lack empathy for all life. Good example of inductive reasoning is the proposed travel band. Assuming all people from the banned countries are terrorist. When we think inductively we make assumptions that are not based on facts.

A renaissance, a birth, is always bloody and filled with pain. This past year is a very good indication that as a community, a country, and hopefully a world, we cannot keep a watershed of the old as the new comes. The pain and fear we all feel from time-to-time is all apart of the new birth. Those not connected to our community as participants or allies will still be forced into a birth. Once the birth begins it cannot be put on hold.

There seems to be a cosmic intention that is pushing us forward through the pain and fear. We are being pushed toward a new concept of humanity. Awakened to, as the Chinese say, “human who walks among the stars.” This renaissance is bringing a new love to all that exist.

This is never more apparent than it is in watching the outpouring of concern for children and parents being separated by the USA border patrol. The outcry is one of separating children from their primary source of love. Children and family that know they are whole, complete, and love. The world is filled with individuals who were conceived in love, grew in love, and bring the message to all that would see and know in their hearts. In this we become inclusive in all that we experience and do.

It is time for us all to think with our hearts and feel with our minds.

Copyrighted© 2016-2018 Suzanne Deakins                                                                Sexual Fluidity

 

 

Creative Identity

Join us Friday June 22nd at 3 PM Pacific time, 6 Pm Eastern time on ACIM Gather at Paltalk. Please join us for an hour of discovery and fellowship.

The suppression of creative urges damages our sense of self and identity. For most of us growing up in a western culture our creative urges were pushed under the surface of our consciousness. Sexually speaking these urges begin soon after the moment of birth. We now know that many women have an orgasm at the moment the baby’s head begins to crown. While any woman who has given birth without sedation will tell you there is pain, women who are aware will tell you there is an enormous sense of release and pleasure. Several European studies have gone on to document this with both birth mothers and midwifes.

To me, this means our first sexual experience, comes at the moment of our birth. We are psychically connected to our birth mother at those moments and for many months to come. If our birth mother was joyous at our birth there will be a start of a joyful paradigm in our consciousness about creativity and sexuality.

At about 2 years old, little boys and girls, become very interested in the genitalia of each other and themselves. Boys notice circumcision and lack of it, girls often feel confused because they have no penis. If this exploration is discouraged and not discussed the child begins to build a negative idea about their sex assign identity.

Around 2 years transgender children will often begin having feelings of confusion about their gender. Parents who try to discourage the feelings and discussion of sexual identification by a child do more harm in suppressing the child and their sense of wholeness and health. Sexual curiosity, feelings, gender inquisitiveness are all a part of building a healthy ego. An ego, which is based on healthy insights into the working of our psyche.

My point with all of this is that gender and sexual assignment discussions are an important part of mental health and the well being of all children. When a parent denies the feelings and need for discussion in these areas the child’s creativity is buried and becomes stagnant.

Understanding your feelings of gender are an important part of realizing your identity. Not because you must act in a certain way, but because if you understand your underlying feelings and identity, you free yourself from the boxes society has placed on us, labeling us binary and limiting our gender identity to male or female.

Carl Jung took Freud’s work on the importance of sexuality and gender in our life a step further. He boldly stated that we are whole, and complete, both female and male genders. He further went on to explore the idea that it takes both the male and female concepts for us to be creative. Creativity is defined as something like baking a cake, building a sand castle… or any other endeavor you might take. Our gender identity, how we view our selves as a sexual creative being is at the very core of our spiritual identity.

Our moment of orgasm no matter how it occurs is a moment of sacredness. It is that one time we are not limited to a preconceived idea about our self, our body, our identity and know we are one with the Universe, one with Truth and God.

Copyright 2016-2018 Suzanne Deakins

Sexual Fluidity, release date fall of 2018

The Prosperos’ classes Translation and Crown Mysteries address these issues and give you techniques to help you in your road to spiritual health. Contact me at onespiritpress@gmai.com and visit us at www.onespiritpress.com

Creative Identity

Join us Friday June 22nd at 3 PM Pacific time, 6 Pm Eastern time on ACIM Gather at Paltalk. Please join us for an hour of discovery and fellowship.

The suppression of creative urges damages our sense of self and identity. For most of us growing up in a western culture our creative urges were pushed under the surface of our consciousness. Sexually speaking these urges begin soon after the moment of birth. We now know that many women have an orgasm at the moment the baby’s head begins to crown. While any woman who has given birth without sedation will tell you there is pain, women who are aware will tell you there is an enormous sense of release and pleasure. Several European studies have gone on to document this with both birth mothers and midwifes.

To me, this means our first sexual experience, comes at the moment of our birth. We are psychically connected to our birth mother at those moments and for many months to come. If our birth mother was joyous at our birth there will be a start of a joyful paradigm in our consciousness about creativity and sexuality.

At about 2 years old, little boys and girls, become very interested in the genitalia of each other and themselves. Boys notice circumcision and lack of it, girls often feel confused because they have no penis. If this exploration is discouraged and not discussed the child begins to build a negative idea about their sex assign identity.

Around 2 years transgender children will often begin having feelings of confusion about their gender. Parents who try to discourage the feelings and discussion of sexual identification by a child do more harm in suppressing the child and their sense of wholeness and health. Sexual curiosity, feelings, gender inquisitiveness are all a part of building a healthy ego. An ego, which is based on healthy insights into the working of our psyche.

My point with all of this is that gender and sexual assignment discussions are an important part of mental health and the well being of all children. When a parent denies the feelings and need for discussion in these areas the child’s creativity is buried and becomes stagnant.

Understanding your feelings of gender are an important part of realizing your identity. Not because you must act in a certain way, but because if you understand your underlying feelings and identity, you free yourself from the boxes society has placed on us, labeling us binary and limiting our gender identity to male or female.

Carl Jung took Freud’s work on the importance of sexuality and gender in our life a step further. He boldly stated that we are whole, and complete, both female and male genders. He further went on to explore the idea that it takes both the male and female concepts for us to be creative. Creativity is defined as something like baking a cake, building a sand castle… or any other endeavor you might take. Our gender identity, how we view our selves as a sexual creative being is at the very core of our spiritual identity.

Our moment of orgasm no matter how it occurs is a moment of sacredness. It is that one time we are not limited to a preconceived idea about our self, our body, our identity and know we are one with the Universe, one with Truth and God.

Copyright 2016-2018 Suzanne Deakins

Sexual Fluidity, release date fall of 2018

The Prosperos’ classes Translation and Crown Mysteries address these issues and give you techniques to help you in your road to spiritual health. Contact me at onespiritpress@gmai.com and visit us at www.onespiritpress.com

Identity

Please join us today

​June 15​ at 3 PM Pacific time and 6 PM Eastern Time at ACIM Gather Room on Paltalk. We are going to be exploring our relationship between our identity and God.

What we mean when we say I am I

Identity

Spiritual study naturally encompasses discussions and inquiries into our identity. When I define spiritual study my definition includes all of life, the food we grow and eat, the relationships we have with each other, animals, the earth… our bodies. It includes our relationship with what has been called God, higher power…

Relationships of all kinds are a result of how we see ourselves and how this vision relates to how we envision all life. The many roles we inherit in our lifetime form an identity that is dense and sticky. Every experience starts adding a layer to our identity blocking the natural transparency and the clear pathways present that takes us to our spiritual and life fulfillment.

As we age we often become static and stiff. Arthritis and other diseases that cause a stiffness and lack of motion are a good look at how this lack of fluidity in our minds and identity affects the physical being. To tell you that you just have to let go of old identities is what works, but is simplistic and unrealistic for most of us.

To understand what must be done you have to understand how the outcome or end should look. Like any other activity to be successful we need to understand the process, how each step looks and the outcomes.

Covering up our identity with false premises or denying our true identity does not help us move from our static self into the cosmic flow or cosmic power. To start with our true identity is often said to be I am I. Meaning that the roles and physical identification of where we are born, our name, and birth stories are just that stories made up to give a grounding or a point of ascertaining who we are and our relationship to the world. You can decide to make a new story of birth for yourself.

Two things happen at the moment of birth. Someone looks at our genitals and declares we are singularly male or female. Then our butts are whacked to insure we can make a sound and communicate with those around us. Both of these happenings begin us on a journey that will often feel limited, static, and mired in the denseness of mind.

Gender is not based on your biological sex neither is it static.

Starting at the first moment, you must come to terms with the idea that your biological sex is not binary, neither male nor female exclusively. Your gender is by the nature of reality non-binary. You are fluid capable of being any gender at any moment. By nature you are androgynous, NOT just male and female but all genders and capable of being any gender identity at anytime. Gender expression is external. This is based on individual and society concepts and expectations.

Gender Identity is an internal innate feeling of gender, usually based on a binary biological concept of male or female. What we now know is our identity is rarely solely lined up with our biological sex assignment. There are many factors that go into one’s biological sex.

It may seem strange for a spiritual idea to be focused on gender and biological sexual identification, but I have come to understand that the confusion of gender identity and binary biological sexual assignment cause a great deal of trouble in how we see our relationship with life, including what many call Truth, God or higher power.

The simple question is how can an individual understand they are ONE with life, Truth, and God if from the moment of birth they are told they are a part of a system that is either or … I teach that Truth, God is all there is. My biological sex is female. How am I to relate to a male God? To me it is simple… get to a point where we understand that life is fluid, constantly moving, unfolding, and knowing. I know understand that my identity is not dictated by what story I have been told or what society, family, or tribe has dictated.

This is the beginning of a series of topics based on the idea of Identity. You will be able to see the blogs on onespiritpress.com

© 2016-2018 Suzanne Deakins
Sexual Fluidity

Suzanne Deakins, Ph.D., H.W.M.
suzannedeak@gmail.com
503-954-0012

Love isn’t created out of feelings, emotions, or saying I do. But is the container in which we grow and become intimate with all life. From Sacred Intimacy

The End of Wanting and Gift of Love

The End of Wanting and Gift of Love today on ACIM Gather at Paltalk at 3 Pm Pacific time, 6 pm Eastern time. Please join us for an hour of exploration and discovery in an atmosphere of love.

When I was 13 I desired to know why the world was as it is. In my 20s I desired to be loved and adored and found to be worthy of having a good life. By my 30s and 40s I felt the desire to leave a legacy… something to be remembered by. These moments of desire came with epiphanies. Epiphanies came as moments when I had insight into a kind of cosmic answer of order. Like the moment I realized I could love all life that I was not confounded to box called love, given to me in my youth. It was when I realized to be loved I must love myself first.

When my children passed I wanted another epiphany, a moment of meaning and relief from the pain. No amount of meditation or prayer brought it to me. Each time I dwelt on the reasons I was filled with further pain. Walking down 8th Street in the village in NYC it finally came. There was no meaning; there was no insight and no relief from pain. There were no shooting stars or great symphonies playing in my mind or life. No moments of blindness in the realization. There was a quiet letting go. A simple quiet tear fell, this was all there was to life. What I was willing to make it. If there was a higher source of love and being it dwelt in my muddled mind waiting to be let out.

When I realized only I could give meaning to my life. I stopped desiring that which had always been readily available. I stopped desiring to know, to be loved, and have relief. For the first time in my life I had a moment of true piece. I was no longer thinking in a binary way, but rather knew all that was subsisted within the realm of my ability to think. In my thinking there was no longer right or wrong in a traditional manner, good or bad, white or black, but rather an infinite shades of Truth permeating my whole universe. I no longer felt the need to rectify my existence or try to validate my family or my life.

In short I stopped desiring and wanting and started living. I started being, just being. Nothing is more peaceful more comforting than just being. No need to want or desire something more than what has been and is. When I look back I know I would not change my life. As I grow older there is a comfort in knowing I just am. No need to judge my life or contribution to the world, no need for a legacy, no need to know there is something beyond this state of consciousness.

When we be let go of the fear of being neutral of needing to desire, know, and want we begin a life journey in a way that is unpredictably. We give up thinking either or and let go of our binary way of thinking. This leads us to a greater peace, a greater moment of existing in a fear free moment of just being.
Perhaps the greatest realization of all is the moment we grasp death may be the largest epiphany of all.

From Sexual Fluidity @ 2016-2018

By Suzanne Deakins

Rogue Mind

Rogue Mind Going Beyond Beliefs On Friday June 1st at ACIM Gather on Paltalk 3pm Pacific time 6 pm Eastern Time. Please join us for an hour of discovery and fellowship.

Human decency is much different than political philosophies and personal morality. On NPR a woman who is a political strategist made the statement that Roseanne Barr’s Twitter had nothing to do with politics but was a statement of inhumanity that she (Rosanne Barr) lacked the humane decency toward another (paraphrasing). This is an important idea in my opinion. Political leanings should have nothing to do with decency, humanness, and basic moral character.

Each of us sees life differently, according to how we were taught as children and the basic dynamic of our families. Our differences at all levels are to be celebrated, not judged in such a manner as leaving us demeaned. Morality and the embracing of humanity can’t be taught. It is, I believe, an internal gyroscope of life’s direction. Instinctively we know to preserve life and embrace the beauty of diverseness in our environment. Each rose is slightly different as each puppy from the same parents has different looks and personalities. These differences are the very bases for infinite variety we know to be so about the nature of reality. Only by cooperating with the differences in any system is life preserved. Darwin’s survival of the most fit does not deal with strength but is a statement of those capable of fitting into systems and working with in a system. This however, does not eliminate the rogue mind or the artistic and intellectual endeavor to explore outside the boxes.

All systems tend to weaken if they are not infused with new ideas and diversion. If we look back on history we can find many examples where systems and plans failed not because they were wrong or bad, but because they became stale and weakened in their ability to accept new and different into the system and adapt as needed.

Part of survival and humanness is being able to think abstractly in such a manner as to step aside from what we have been taught and to see what is necessary for us to move forward and preserve life in a manner that embraces the basic inalienable rights of all life. This moment where we step outside of our family background, our personal prejudices, our ego minds desire to always be right is our rogue mind. Our rogue mind reaches out to the Universe in search of the new and the miracles of life unfolding. Miracles don’t happen if we are incapable of being decent toward all life. We miss the beauty and excitement the eternal hope and faith of life continuing. We miss the joy of a rose unfolding in the morning dew and sun, of a new life of all sorts being born… all giving us a kind of sustenance that is particular to those who set aside judgment of good and bad, of black and white, and look with love into the great unbounded whole we call the Universe.

No matter what our gender, our belief about gender, and sexuality, our religious/spiritual and political beliefs we are united as life. Expressing in infinite variety created out of life embracing life in a moment of creation.

No matter what your story, you were conceived in a phenomenal moment where time, space, and life stood still. A moment of love, and in this we are given insight into decency, morality, and humanness.

© 2018 Suzanne Deakins

From Sexual Fluidity to be released Fall 2018